Everyone has secrets. It is amazing how much you don't know about even your closest of friends.

Deep in a cave with your face as my walls.
Walls, yes, walls.
Surrounded with structure and having none of my own.
Desperate and alone.
All alone, so alone.
In my cave. I love my cave.
I put myself here, you know.
Yes. I've done it all to myself.
All to myself. Myself and alone.

Oh hell, why does life have to be so painful, and why do I have to watch the people I love the most suffer so much, while in comparison I have nothing at all to complain about?

Cursed, that's what I call it, because no matter how good it makes you feel, evil is the smoke in the end,when the end is all that matters. And through the line I'm longing to erase, "Hold on" repeats and I can picture the scene...the click to begin and you suck it all in. I hold back but away it flows, outside when I am alone and I am deep in ( Read more... )

I have my blanket and my favorite pillow, I am going to sleep. As I slow down and become black in my hole, the rest of life revolves around me. I am fine with my fate because when I close my eyes it's dark, where my nightmares can't hurt me because I get what I want and I only want for there to be no light. So wake me up when the end of the world ( Read more... )

I'm melting into you and it's not because I'm crying. I melt for my sorrow and my reasons for not wanting either side, but loving it so much and longing to join you in it. I melt for my fear and I cry because I fear I cannot rescue you. And I die because you rescue me. I am foolish in my belief, but what is belief, because we all believe ( Read more... )

I'm standing on the bridge with my toes caressing the edge. If you dare me to jump I'm already on the street because when the light turns red I'm off and I don't even care to look both ways. There is no hand when I reach out to grab it so I mutter about not being loved and I'm flying to my death after I've made the decision to end something that ( Read more... )

So it's been forever since I've updated and I've written quite a bit since the last time so I'm just going to gradually add everything I've written, starting with this. Everyone asks me where I got Princess Vapor from...it just kind of came out so here it is. Oh and once again, I do not consider myself talented at all with my writing, I just ( Read more... )

a crying heart, i bled alone
i was my own demise
"if i'm not remembered then i never existed"
pray for my soul and sleep sound tonight
someday it will be your turn

i was going through some song lyrics today and found one that perfectly describes how i feel right now. it's called "a song for the optimist" by atreyu ( Read more... )