"....I'm afriad of being replaced and not know it."

fuck, i don't even remember what i was going to say.

"....my friends are my energyMy mother and sister went out last night, leaving me by my lonesome. Usually this is a good thing, however last night my imagination got the best of me. I swore someone was in my backyard, watching my every move. So what did I do? I ran into my mom's room and stayed there all night. I was scared. I kept thinking I saw ( Read more... )

...that you won’t come back again.
And you know that I’d go
but I’d lose myself in it.
I’ll wait into the summer and into the winter,
I’ll wait for you, I will.
I’ll hold onto you tightly and pray for you nightly.
I’ll wait for you...

seeing you smile warms my heart. goddamn, it changes my whole mood.

is it completely fucked up that I relate losing a game of solitaire to how i feel on the inside?

I had a night full of amazing dreams, which is surprising considering my mood right before I went to bed.

But my dreams. Wow. Despite some werid shit that always ends up in my dreams, it revolved around the beach. It was full of surfing and wind in my hair, and a meteor shower. I think it was the meteor shower and the perfect weather that made ( Read more... )

...and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much it's like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
You let this one person come down on the most perfect moment.
And it breaks my heart to know the only ( Read more... )

you should have made up your fucking mind before you got started.

it ended as quickly as it started. it's like an all time record. i wish I couldn't cry. it hurts too much to keep it in. but it's worth not crying over.

4 days in. could i have possibly fucked this up already? maybe i haven't changed.... F U C K!

As I said before, fuck expectationsI'm sick of putting my neck out for everyone else. Sacrificing myself to help others. And it's not returned. It is never fucking returned ( Read more... )