i had a super fun night with the boys last night. i picked up woodster and we headed over to chad's. stopped at the grocery store on the way to pick up cookies like i usually do ( Read more... )

i guess the no sleeping craziness of the past few days did some good..down to 109.8. i haven't seen those numbers since the last week of july! hooray! it really motivated me to watch myself after brunch today. i'm ending the day with 1260 calories. could be better..could be WAY worse. i'm not super scared to way in tomorrow for the first time in a ( Read more... )

i didn't sleep last night. my mind wouldn't quit. i laid down at 9am after filling out my wells fargo application. slept like shit until about 12:30 then said fuck it. got up. felt like shit. got ready for work. i felt better once i got there. dan is back from his honeymoon!!! as soon as i walked in the door he was all smiles and gave me a big hug ( Read more... )

virtually everything today has brought me to the brink of tears ( Read more... )

every ones hours are being cut at work..tips have been shit because business is slipping in to the epically slow season. i'm dying! i haven't even come close to making enough money to cover the bills i have coming up this week. i'm so frustrated. i haven't been spending frivolously..i've hardly been spending at all actually...no matter what i do, ( Read more... )

finally down to 110 after being stuck around 112 for EIGHT DAYS. fingers crossed to be below 110 by october 1st ( Read more... )

i stayed up til 830am for no reason. i was looking at random shit on the net..applied for a loan to consolidate my lame debt (i was denied of course)..job searching. slept 830 to 3pm. i have zero energy. haven't gone to the gym. haven't done anything productive besides fold my laundry. i'm so lame today! i feel completely anti-social.  i've had 400 ( Read more... )

work was slow as shit. my boss told me i can have tomorrow off. bittersweet. i have to finally go get the last of my shit out of my old apartment..so good that i will have time to do that. i can spend a few hours at the gym after tonight's sickening calorie fest. BUT i need $500 more to cover my bills do on the first. fuck me. i can never freakin' ( Read more... )

i spent two hours grocery shopping last night. i actually really enjoy moving slowly down the isles, reading nutrition labels, selecting the fruits that look the best and most of all..being tempted by all the garbage but being strong enough to push my cart away. i always walk past the pastries and admire them, pick them up..think about getting one ( Read more... )

going to dinner tonight. of course taryn ditched out. of course no one else wants/can take her place. so it's going to be holly, ryan, the guy who was ryan's best man and myself. eh. sounds like an awkward double date. i'm not excited. holly wants to dress up. i don't have the energy to get cute and be fun ( Read more... )