too much has been going on to write about. and i've actually be really busy. and now there is too much going on in my life that i shouldn't write about. i kinda feel myself changing. and i think i'm about to do something big. but maybe i won't. maybe i'll keep the status quo. or maybe i'll just be really bad. but then i'll just hurt people. like i ( Read more... )

so i'm sitting here. waiting for alex to call. if he even does. and my mom is sleeping. and i feel so alone. i'm wide awake. it would be better if i could just sleep. but i slept on the way home so i'm not tired. seriously i miss everyone. i miss being with 70+ people at night. praying and singing and goofing off and just having people there. its ( Read more... )

young neighbors in action...YNIA in chicago was amazing. too much to really write about. i got closer to becky and michelle and even defrank. met this really awesome guy corbin who reminds me of adam and joey combined. it was weird but he gave me his emo bandana and i gave him my shark ring that i never take off. i felt kinda sad about it but i ( Read more... )

i forgot to mention some important things yesterday. like i'm blonde again. and we fired the crazy scary kid from work and got a new one. i worked with him today and he's actually a nice kid. things have gotten more complicated and confuzing. if u can imagine. people just like to come out of left field don't they. i dunno whats going on with me and ( Read more... )

adam just called me...i feel slightly better.

so many things have happened. jackie blew me off on sunday to go get drunk with jen. that felt great. adam picked me up. we got ice cream. went to oktoberfest for like 2 secs and then back to his house. watched so tv and then he took me home. yesterday went to practice. random funny quotes... "its just a part of our urban guerilla theatre" ~kris ( Read more... )

pictures were alright. the guy was really nice and funny. he kept making me nervous though. its really creepy when an old guy stares at you for 3 hours and takes your picture. it kinda seems wrong. but we got to go to sims park and take pictures on the rocks and i took some with my dog. my mom kept yelling at me because i wasn't smiling. i keep ( Read more... )

i just realized how unhappy i've been with myself lately. and that needs to change. i've done a lot of shitty things. i just really need to work on being a better person. especially a better friend. senior pics tomorrow. not looking forward to it. i hate it when people look at me. it makes me nervous. i wish i was camera whore like tyna.

where to start... brad called and said danny was probably having people over and asked if i wanted to go. i had actually been thinking about how i wanted to drink earlier that day so i said sure. went to the meeting for my trip to chicago. got there late becasue i almost forgot. i wanted to punch dana in the face because she made us talk about ( Read more... )

tuesday went to work. chilled at home a bit and had dinner with rebecca for the first time in a while. went to practice for a bit. wanted to see kate but i couldn't find her so i just left a note in her car. went to adam's and watched an awesome movie about the dandy warhols and the brian jamestown massacre. < i think thats their name. he played me ( Read more... )