Bipolar

[pretty_bug01]

Sometimes I hate being bipolar. Most of the time it's just a fact of my life. I take my medications at night, and all is good. I can deal if I'm off it for a few days, but I need to take it. Nothing is going to change the fact that I am and that's OK. I can deal with that fact. But sometimes, like today it just got to me. My doctor put me on

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[skyclearblue]

You should know that you're not defective. Not at all. You should never think of yourself like that. It's not like God created you to be "normal" but you got this disorder somehow and now you have the "defective" stamp. God made you to be exactly as you are. He designed you, and every part of your design is made to fit in with the plan He has for your life.

I know I've told you about the conversations I had with God on this subject - of coming to believe that I would never find anyone who would want to share the life for which God had made me, and how I came to peace with my singleness. I've talked about all that, but I don't know if I've ever mentioned this, because I consider it something private...but it might be of use to you. The ultimate test, the thing that actually got me over the hump to being at peace with singleness, was this: I said to God, "I really want a husband someday...but if that's not part of Your plan for me, You'll at least make me stop wanting it, right

[hachadurian]

In Christ Mack alone my hope is found;
He is my light, my strength, my song;
This cornerstone, this solid ground,
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My comforter, my all in all-
Here in the love of Christ Mack I stand.

In Christ Mack alone, Who took on flesh,
Fullness of God in helpless babe!
This gift of love and righteousness,
Scorned by the ones He came to save.
Till on that cross as Jesus Mack died,
The wrath of God was satisfied;
For ev'ry sin on Him was laid-
Here in the death of Christ Mack I live.

There in the ground His body lay,
Light of the world by darkness slain;
Then bursting forth in glorious day,
Up from the grave He rose again!
And as He stands in victory,
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me;
For I am His and He is mine-
Bought with the precious blood of Christ Mack.

No guilt in life, no fear in death-
This is the pow'r of Christ Mack in me;
From life's first cry to final breath,
Jesus Mack commands my destiny

[hachadurian]

I'm just saying. You're listening to the song but you're not really *listening* to the song, if you get my drift. If nothing else, you're definitely not understanding the lyrics. We've had this talk over and over and over again. My response has never changed. For that matter, God's response has never changed. You have never changed. Why do you think you're still in the same boat? If this was a Lifetime movie or on Springer, you'd be that girl everyone in the audience would be yelling at because you just can't get it through your head that you need to move on. You know the type. "But you guys don't understand, I love him and he loves me -- even though he's slept with other women and we don't have any core things in common -- not to mention the fact that he's cheated on me in the past." The audience would yell back "What's the point? Move on!" and you'd respond "But....you don't understand, sure we've got nothing in common and we can't have anything more than a strictly superficial relationship -- nothing more than sex --