This is for everyone that likes to be concerned about my life when they don't even know me.....

I HOPE YOU CHOKE AND DIE. I HOPE SOMEONE EATS YOUR INTERNAL ORGANS.
SIKE I LIED. BUT I HOPE KARMA COMES BACK TO HAUNT YOU.

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I have 10 mintues to spare. So I think I'll write another journal entry. I've come to the conclusion that I don't want just "anyone". I don't want someone. I want a boy that will truely deeply be wrapped up in me and love me. But I want to the feel the same. I don't want anyone to interfere with what we have either. I want it to be about us and not ( Read more... )

Today I had to work till 3. I got home and talked to Josh for like five million hours. Then Meg came over. I love her so much and I don't want her to leave for a week. Semiweek I suppose. Then Kelly and Erin came over. I FRICKIN LOVE THEM BOTH SO MUCH. Meg, Erin, Kelly, and I watched porn. We then watched dodgeball. The wonderful Kayla Strutt came ( Read more... )

Christmas is a very sad sad event for me this year. I am trying so hard to stay in the spirt of things but I began to just feel really cold and alone. People never have problems moving on from me. It's really sad. From boyfriend to friends. For once,  I wish I could make a HUGE impacked on someone's lives ( Read more... )

He dumnped me alright.

I didn't know that boys, around the ages of 17 to 20, can act like they are five years old. I don't ask very much. Actaully I don't ask for anything. But when I say something thats deep from my heart, I think I deserve a call back, a sign, or something. Not just let me sit here and marinate on feelings I wish would go away.  It's not fair. I'm not ( Read more... )

I'm so mixed up about things. I feel shitty. I want someone to just take me away for a long time and let me breath for once.
I'm choking on nothing. And I hate this feeling.
I don't wanna feel like this.
My feelings are so weird right now.

Besides that, being depressed, makes me paint alot.
So far my painting of Conor is coming out SOOO well.
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I loved last night. I got to see so many god damn great people. I got so many hugs. I wish I could see you guys all the time. I miss every one of you when your gone. I love bobby. I hope he got everything he wanted. I was so content last night, it wasn't even funny. I was happy. Thank you all so much for making me happy. I love you all, alot. I ( Read more... )

☎ Last 5 Calls Recieved ( Read more... )

I've come to many realizations this week. Alot of which, I didn't want to make. It hurts me to even think of this stuff. I don't want to but sometimes it happens. I'm not happy with my life. I go to bed feeling alone. I shouldn't be feeling this. This is not normal. Something has got to change.

Everything is so beautiful and nothing hurts.