been forever and normally i would never write in this thing again but i just needed to write some of my feelings down. Basicly i feel like i am swimming towards this goal that just keeps moving farther back. And the more i swim the more i also begin to get tired and get pulled down. Its like this hole on the inside that just keeps me feeling like i ( Read more... )

hahaha i am so bored i decided to update this pos. Anyway i am currently at work watching this long ass scan go by...which reminds me that i work now people. Basicly i work for a post production film company and i cant really explain my job to most cause i do so much and most people dont understand linux and all that stuff...basicly we make movies ( Read more... )

Ok thanks to Casey Koon i did something that was really intresting. I went back and read all my xangas....I suggest that everyone go back and read old journals and xangas and stuff like that before you forget that stuff. It really was a eye opener to read that stuff. Not only to see the growth I have had both physically and mentally. Lots of ( Read more... )

Been a long time since my last post is it not. So nothing really new, well I guess a few things. I must wear glasses now whenever I want to see which sucks but I can deal with it. My car now has an amazing system in it which took like 4 days to install with my dad and I. Um the starter on my car went out not to long ago and just had it replaced. ( Read more... )

So its been awhile since i have written anything. So lets begin with i now own a car, a 1992 fod thunderbird. Um also my beautiful stacey is going to be 18 on wensday. Other then that same as always. Just been wanting school to end. Also like I am so in love with stacey, i dont think you realize how much someone means to you untill you have time ( Read more... )

nothing like waking up with sore throat and sour stomach then going to vomit and vomiting blood..... yes thats right vomiting blood.... but yay my family doesnt care so i get to sit here all day instead of in a hospital getting treatment meh maybe its not at least i hope not anyway other then this things are actually looking up for me like life is ( Read more... )

so things have been alright i mean school sucks and so does adult school... stacey and friends are the best thing i have really. tonight was cool you know chilled with the guys but i kinda felt bad cause stacey needed me so i felt like a jerk there. But at least i get to see her 2morrow but then i am making her wreck other plans to i feel even more ( Read more... )

havent updated in awhile. lets see well school is sucking but whatever its almost over and before you know it ill also be done in adult school. but at least yesterday some thing went right at school i finally found a 6th period ta woot. anyway after having to register yesterday at adult school stacey came by which was good she always makes me feel ( Read more... )

good weekend lol... mostly just lived it up before finals!! lol parties were fun and the best part was having stacey with me. what else can i say things were amazing but then again everytime i am with her things are amazing. SO right now i am listening to a cd i could not find and somehow stace found it so i am so happy lol and i wont mention the ( Read more... )

ehhh i always get like this always this time of year. and i guess its just kinda worse this year cause i know ill have nothing to go back to. like i miss football always around this time i miss the friendship the pulling together with your friends to do one more sprint or to hit one more time even tho your dead tired. like just so much football ( Read more... )