oh well?

I didn't take my sleeping pill because I thought I'd be up talking tonight. Instead, I'm up staring at my computer screen.

I think I should've just gone to school instead. I'll probably need those make-up hours later.

i need to get sleep. i need to go to sleep, but instead i'm keeping myself awake until i'm exhausted that i can just pass out when i lay down, without having to lie in bed and think and wait to fall asleep. i don't want to think. i just want to sleep.

Again, bought myself plane tickets. A round-trip this time, to a different place. I'm a little apprehensive about the flight, which is normal, I guess. Airports always make me feel nervous. It's like I can feel all the anxiety and anger and tension from people all around me. Worries about getting here or there on time; anger from delayed flights, ( Read more... )

How am I supposed to create a resumé if I don't actually have anything to put down?

Sunday afternoons always make me feel depressed.

Right now I feel like taking a big pair of scissors and just randomly cutting off chunks of my hair. I wouldn't go any shorter than chin-length, though. It would look cool and crazy and uneven. (And it would satisfy my urge to chop off my hair ( Read more... )

i hope this really is just pms and that i'll be feeling better in a few days. but even if it is just pms, all the things i've been worrying about won't just go away when it's over.

Very deep thoughts keep me from sleeping. Or maybe I'm so tired that I think the ramblings of my brain are somehow deep.

Ha. My Livejournal. I forgot this even existed ( Read more... )