i wonder if anyone reads this little diddy of a journal? if you do leave a comment...love ( Read more... )

I think the winter automatically puts you in a lonely mood. When I'm away from my family I miss them so much sometimes it's hard to hold back the tears. They just feel farther away because it's so cold I think. Thats another reason why I love Valentines day, because it warms the soul and gives hope for the day you'll see them again. I've been ( Read more... )

I truly believe there might have been a shift in the earth today..maybe due the effects of global warming...who knows but what i do know is that today quite a few things changed wether or not some of them directly affect me is always up for debate but in these cases i'm at a yes and no stand point ( Read more... )

it's officially been 2 years of singledom for me! go me! i feel so independent and i feel confident saying that i really truly am happy ( Read more... )

so i called off work today i've kind of been a mess lately i'm not even sure if it's a hot mess or just a mess but it's something...ever since i was told to start this diet i've felt like someone else...i've gotten positive feedback on my looks so far which is good...but lately I've been going out drinking alot more often. I used to think drinking ( Read more... )

I've been thinking about writing an entry for a few days and now that i'm on the site what was it that was on my heart that i specifically wanted to write about...theres a lot of things i'd like to write about but i feel like righting them out might make these certain things real and I don't know if i can face that reality ( Read more... )

Is this really what I wanted...did I subconciously want them to be done the whole time so i could have a fair shot...i don't think so..i don't know...part of me wants to be the comforter and consoler but part of me feels he doesn't deserve it...i don't want to be sloppy however many because it took him how many failed relationships to figure it out ( Read more... )

my mind says no but my heart can't let go...what is wrong with me he's been the epitome of a person you keep an arms length away and i can't help but wanna keep him in my life...i hate this i see this good and I can't let it go but i could just scream for hours about all the wrong doings and he'd have a perfect answer that i'll believe...I hate it ( Read more... )

I was looking back at old entries in here from like years...literally years ago and it's almost funny that the same guys I made out landish confessions of what I wish I could say to them on here are still in my life...wtf is up with that???...Friends are always asking me why I keep worrying about people that have done me so wrong in the past ( Read more... )

So today I'm officially leaving Pittsburgh for Christmas break! I made it through my first semester of living on my own, being by myself, living in an unfamiliar city, and dealing with more crazy dancers than i care to mention... I've made some great friends...Matt and Tegan lovers for lifetimes...It's so wierd living here It's like a different ( Read more... )