Mother's Hand
I collapsed at a ritual yesterday.
The ritual was "Lavatio" which was a procession from the house here, to the temple, bearing a statue of Cybele. We then went to a nearby stream for a clensing of the statue. When we returned we also did an energy raising circle. The purpose was to raise energy for the year ahead. Towards the end of this people bent down in final prayer. I did too, but also found myself sinking to the ground totally.
I collapsed into a fetal position, with my head touching the ground, legs bent under me and arms folded at my side. And I discovered that I couldn't rise - it was like all the energy in me had been sucked out, like a huge magnet was keeping me to the ground. I said "Help" and "I need a hand" but the others didn't hear me. The procession went back to the house. Only Sue P. and Amanda stayed for a vigil, and just as well.
They finally heard me and pulled me back, but I just seemed to have no energy in my limbs. After a while they got me walking bck to the house. I got half way and then it was like a giant hand just pulled me to the ground. I couldn't go any further. Sue stayed with me while Amanda got help. Soon everyone else seemed to be with me and after a few false starts, got me into Cathryn's car and back to the house.
I could barely move my limbs and my feet and hands felt so so cold. After food, green tea and some other ministrations I recovered, but was very very woosy for the rest of the night. We watched the old "Yellow Submarine" film later but it was early nights for everyone who was still at the house.
So, just what did happen to me?
It wasn't: a panic attack, an epileptic seizure; a heart attack (no pain); or hypothermia. Cathryn has some theories but I'm hesitant to reveal them just yet, other to say that just maybe I got "touched by the hand of Mother".
The ritual was "Lavatio" which was a procession from the house here, to the temple, bearing a statue of Cybele. We then went to a nearby stream for a clensing of the statue. When we returned we also did an energy raising circle. The purpose was to raise energy for the year ahead. Towards the end of this people bent down in final prayer. I did too, but also found myself sinking to the ground totally.
I collapsed into a fetal position, with my head touching the ground, legs bent under me and arms folded at my side. And I discovered that I couldn't rise - it was like all the energy in me had been sucked out, like a huge magnet was keeping me to the ground. I said "Help" and "I need a hand" but the others didn't hear me. The procession went back to the house. Only Sue P. and Amanda stayed for a vigil, and just as well.
They finally heard me and pulled me back, but I just seemed to have no energy in my limbs. After a while they got me walking bck to the house. I got half way and then it was like a giant hand just pulled me to the ground. I couldn't go any further. Sue stayed with me while Amanda got help. Soon everyone else seemed to be with me and after a few false starts, got me into Cathryn's car and back to the house.
I could barely move my limbs and my feet and hands felt so so cold. After food, green tea and some other ministrations I recovered, but was very very woosy for the rest of the night. We watched the old "Yellow Submarine" film later but it was early nights for everyone who was still at the house.
So, just what did happen to me?
It wasn't: a panic attack, an epileptic seizure; a heart attack (no pain); or hypothermia. Cathryn has some theories but I'm hesitant to reveal them just yet, other to say that just maybe I got "touched by the hand of Mother".