Rain, rain go away

[poisonedwish]

I've been going through quite a bit emotionally lately. I've been doing a lot of thinking and questioning about what to do with my life. No matter what way I decide to turn I seem to run into these obstacles and uncertainties

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[nessainwe]

I had that problem, thats initially why I left the program. It took everything I enjoyed away from art to the point that I hated it. I plan this year to finally start painting again.. like 3 years later. lol

[poisonedwish]

Yeah.. my sister said almost the same thing about the fashion program. Just took out all the fun.

[ladyrhiannon873]

I had a hard time up til the last year or so knowing what I wanted to do with MY life.I have worked too many minimum wage jobs for the past 15 years so I descided this last year to go back to college and get a degree so that I could become a librarian.I wish you lots of luck deciding what you want to do.

[poisonedwish]

Yeah that's my only fear, never getting a good paying job. I think it sometimes cloud my judgment a little too much.

[pixiebelle]

I love photography as well and would love to get a good digital camera. They are so expensive though :( I would love to open my own business doing photography, I have been wanting to do that for years!

Though don't give up hope! I believe there is no way to fail until you give up. If you want something so bad, it may take awhile, but if you gve it everything you got, and keep trying even when it appears you have "failed", keep trying. I know from experience from just a month ago. My self esteem was at an all time low because I kept failing my real estate exams no matter how hard I tried. I felt stupid and like a failure when my fiance' passed the first time without studying. I finally passed the test with a 95%, higher then most people ever get. It is possible to achieve your dreams.

[poisonedwish]

Same with me.

Yeah.. I know. I just can be too impatient sometimes. Something I need to work on.

[mygreeneyes24]

*hugs* keep your head up, I know what those feelings are like. Things will work themselves out, but remember you are only one person, so take on one thing at a time. Don't over exert yourself. If you aren't happy in those classes, then maybe you could switch to a different class or perhaps the same class, but a different teacher. Maybe the teacher is a big part of why you are so unhappy. Just a thought or guess on my end.

[poisonedwish]

I wish I could. But it's one program, lead by the same three teachers. You can't choose your courses or anything. Which I found a little silly taking classes I knew didnt interest me or anything.

[xfallenxstars]

Hey...I left you a comment in ljfriends but I don't know if you'll see it. I just wanted to ask if I could add you.

[poisonedwish]

Sure, that's cool.