I am so sick it is terrible! I started to feel pretty bad on Sunday (could it be a result of drinking 7+ alcoholic beverages and smoking a lot on Saturday night?) Oh, of course not! Anyway, today I am all shivery and cold and queasy. It really sucks. I was so pathetic in Chem class that the instructor asked why I bothered to come ( Read more... )

Well, I have to admit that I have been having some serious inebriated fun lately. I feel kind of excited about life again--something I haven't felt in a while. It even feels like maybe my job isn't so bad (although tonight might prove that wrong because I know they had four restraints yesterday and we might get more of the same). Oh well. I can't ( Read more... )

He called off work today, which made things easier. This still feels like shit. I hate this feeling so much. It feels like my skin is crawling. I think that it is the right thing even though we were each so close to being what the other wanted. The feeling is never that rational.

Off to Chem lab... Distratction is good...

Well I just got home after breaking up with Josh (he was about to break up with me, too, he is just more of a procrastinator than I am). He was so sweet it was ridiculous. As a result, I feel worse than I could have ever imagined. I am so confused right now. Did I do the right thing? We are not going to talk for a while. He is watching my fish and ( Read more... )

I am so busy! So here goes--Friday Ian came back and stayed over (all though we were unfortunately too drunk to do much of anything besides pass out). We went to Bob's in the morning and I really wish I would've just called off work. (I will keep this regret in mind for next time.) Then on Saturday night we went to Ceremony (well, not Ian, I couldn ( Read more... )

I don't know what I want to say, I think I kind of just wanted to prove I exist.

Ian--if you're there--don't come back and get all distracted and forget to call me, or I'll cry.

How bout my stripey darling is right out in the open? I am so excited! He is normally such a retiring fish. Maybe after eight months he is getting braver. It was so hard to get my picture of him because most of the time when you even look at him, he waits until you look away for a second, then races across the tank and hides his head in a piece of ( Read more... )

Wow was I right about work yesterday, it was beastly! One of the kids bit a chunk out of her arm and was bleeding all over the place. Cristol cleaned up that mess. We had a really nice staff talk about relationships and the potential for physical and emotional damage (inflicting and being inflicted). It was an interesting conversation. Some people ( Read more... )

So Ian is gone now. And this is the most awful excuse for a spring day ever. So far in the past three days, I've had a grand total of 7 hours of sleep. I am very addled right now, and unfortunately I am leaving for work in the next half hour. I have a feeling it is going to be beastly, just beastly ( Read more... )

So Thursday night I could not convince anyone to switch with me and I had to miss Death Cab for Cutie. Not only did I miss Death Cab, I also got bit at work (adding unfortunate insult to injury ( Read more... )