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[please_see_me]

I'm a virgin, but I don't want to be. The problem is that the person I want to lose it to disappeared ages ago.

I think I'm still in love with him.

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[please_see_me]

oh my god why can't i get this entry to go away oh my god oh my god why????

[allthesigns]

Wow, Rift. You've just sunken to whole new levels.

I'm sorry you can't make this entry go away. Hopefully we can retroactively lock them soon. :(

[please_see_me]

I hope so. Except part of me sort of hopes maybe he'll come back and see this and know.

He was going to teach me to make roses from metal. And he thought I was pretty.

He was my best friend and I was in love with him and even before I disappeared he'd been gone for more than a year and I still miss him SO MUCH.

[allthesigns]

You never know. The Rifts make virtually anything possible.

He sounds amazing, he really does, I'm sorry you couldn't find him.

[please_see_me]

His name was Nero, and he had white hair and this... sort of weird arm. He called it a demon arm, but it really wasn't that bad.

I know it's really really silly, but if you see anybody like that, could you tell him Dusty misses him?

[starryeyed_cass]

I'm sorry he's not around anymore, that you've lost that one special person you did want to lose it with.

And it's okay to still be in love with them.

I think the people we fall in love with, we don't really ever fall out of love with them.

[please_see_me]

Do you think?

I guess that makes sense. And it makes me feel less lame for still being crazy about him. He wasn't even my boyfriend. He had a girlfriend back home, and he missed her a LOT. I don't... think he ever really saw me that way, y'know? But I still loved him.

[starryeyed_cass]

Yeah, I think so.

I get what you mean. Back home, I had a boyfriend and we were together for a few years. But he stopped loving me and we split up. Even though he got a new girlfriend and moved on and stuff, I didn't stop loving him.

But it's not lame or anything.

The main thing is, is don't let yourself get upset about it. It's okay to love him still, but don't let it control you. Sometimes you might do silly things you might regret because of it.

[Cassie has done said silly things, Dusty. She wouldn't like for you to do the same.]

[please_see_me]

Oh, I don't. I mean. I had a girlfriend? Um, but she dumped me. It... it wasn't that long ago, for me. It still hurts and I don't really know what to do without her.

I had a friend named Indy who was gonna help me. But she's... gone now. I don't know what happened to her.

I'm sorry, I'm getting all whiny and I really don't have it all that bad! My room here is really nice, and there's a big kitchen and I can make brownies and stuff and everybody's so nice. :)