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[pixie_rings]

I suppose it's always been there, in the back of my mind. We've all gone through a teenage phase when we wish we'd never been born. But this isn't like that

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[pixie_rings]

The thing is, in real life no one cares. No one wants to help. No one's lending an ear. If isolation leads to depression, they're doing a damn good job of keeping us isolated.

I don't think I'm ever going to get out of this dark place. Ever.

[mockingboots]

I can understand exactly where you're coming from, but I hope you won't mind me saying that it's in your best interest to fight. Nothing good ever comes from what seems like the easy way out

[pixie_rings]

I know I'm not a weight on the world. That's precisely it. The world is a weight on me. I don't want to fight it anymore, I just can't. It's won, over, goodbye and thanks for all the fish. Nothing makes me feel good or valuable. No one seems to want to make me feel worth anything. I'm trash, I'm as low as you can get. I could do so many things, and yet because of one stupid bit of paper I don't have can't do anything. They won't even let me flip burgers, you realise that? They'd rather give a job to someone from Rome than call me. I've tried so hard, and I just can't take it anymore. I'm exhausted, so exhausted.

And to be honest, I don't think anyone left behind will cry. Because I won't leave anyone important behind.

[mockingboots]

I think you're valuable.

The things you write alone are brilliant, and you've plainly got more intellect than the average bear.

I'm just hoping you'll be all right.
Because I think you've got a lot to offer, and I'd be genuinely sad to see you leave.

:(

[pixie_rings]

Thank you for thinking that. It means a lot to me, I appreciate it.

...although I thinking it's just 'cos you want your birthday fic finished.

[pandawolf]

*hugs*
I can't offer much, but I hope you'll be strong enough to move past this. And I'm all ears if you want to talk. *hugs*

[pixie_rings]

I've talked about it incessantly over the last few days. I don't think I can do that anymore. Thank you for the offer.

[pixie_rings]

Grazie.
É solo che... Che é un momento estremamente difficile, ed é facile che mi lasci sopraffare. A volte mi sembra di non farcela più.

[pixie_rings]

Cercherò qualcosa, anche se il difficile è sempre arrivarci, in quei luoghi, senza soldi. Non credo proprio che pagherebbero il viaggio.
Cercherò comunque qualcosa, grazie.

[ageofalejandro]

:( Dude, been there. Don't underestimate the value of webfriends - we're here and we &heart; you. Please don't follow that line of thinking to completion. I know it's a hard hole to get out of but you can do it!

[pixie_rings]

I'll try not to. It just gets so, so hard, sometimes, really.

[ageofalejandro]

I understand. Been hanging by a thread a time or two myself. Wish I could be there IRL for you.

[pixie_rings]

I wouldn't want to bring you down as well...