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[pixie_rings]

I suppose it's always been there, in the back of my mind. We've all gone through a teenage phase when we wish we'd never been born. But this isn't like that

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[mockingboots]

I can understand exactly where you're coming from, but I hope you won't mind me saying that it's in your best interest to fight. Nothing good ever comes from what seems like the easy way out

[pixie_rings]

I know I'm not a weight on the world. That's precisely it. The world is a weight on me. I don't want to fight it anymore, I just can't. It's won, over, goodbye and thanks for all the fish. Nothing makes me feel good or valuable. No one seems to want to make me feel worth anything. I'm trash, I'm as low as you can get. I could do so many things, and yet because of one stupid bit of paper I don't have can't do anything. They won't even let me flip burgers, you realise that? They'd rather give a job to someone from Rome than call me. I've tried so hard, and I just can't take it anymore. I'm exhausted, so exhausted.

And to be honest, I don't think anyone left behind will cry. Because I won't leave anyone important behind.

[mockingboots]

I think you're valuable.

The things you write alone are brilliant, and you've plainly got more intellect than the average bear.

I'm just hoping you'll be all right.
Because I think you've got a lot to offer, and I'd be genuinely sad to see you leave.

:(

[pixie_rings]

Thank you for thinking that. It means a lot to me, I appreciate it.

...although I thinking it's just 'cos you want your birthday fic finished.

[mockingboots]

You wouldn't be entirely wrong.
:)

I think your writing is brilliant, and that's a piece of you're writing. I want you to keep having the opportunity to come up with interesting concepts and sharing them.

I want you to keep having ideas. I'm sorry I keep sounding so sappy, but to be honest, I suffer from depression. I started writing a wordpress about self-improvement and helping others. oo

I've done a lot of reflecting, so I've spent a lot of time thinking about all of these things, and then writing down rules to try and help myself cope.

I want to keep interacting with you, because I think you're a pretty cool person. Completely honest.

:)

[pixie_rings]

Thank you, really. This means a great deal. I think it's good for me to write, actually, it helps me a little. Although sometimes I feel so down I can't even stand to open Word.