Sam I Am- Thanks and Additional Author Notes
Additional Author Notes
When I first thought of doing the big bang, I had become disenchanted with S6 and very unhappy with what they were doing with Sam and RoboSam, etc. I couldn’t in all honesty write a long story involving the boys’ brotherly love or write a story in an earlier season. All I could think of was ‘What did Sam go through the year that he was separated from Dean?’ I mean, the show had shown us snippets of Dean’s life with Lisa and Ben but nothing about Sam.
So I wanted to fill in the gap. That is when I first got the idea for ‘Sam I Am’. It didn’t work out trying to stick to the canon and imagining what went on because I couldn’t relate to Robo Sam at all.
That is when I wrote a note to myself-that not having a soul equals no memories unlike what the show described having no soul as that Sam has no conscious/morals and does things that he deems is logical, etc.
I didn’t base this on nothing rather I feel that our memories are an important part of our soul because they are essentially what define who we are. I see this with my grandfather who has got Alzheimer’s and while he still has his personality, without his memories-he is a changed man and is completely different to how he was before.
Finally the title ‘Sam I Am’-I wanted a title to reflect Sam’s questioning of his surroundings and the people with whom he had ended up (paralleling the questioning in Dr. Seuss' 'Green Eggs and Ham'). But I also wanted to reflect the fact that at the end of the story-he is certain that he is Sam and knows where he belongs.
Thanks
I would like to thank reapertownusa for being such an incredible and fantastic cheerleader. From the moment, I signed on to do the big bang with a tentative ‘I might drop out’, she cheered me on and through her I found the amazing comm gsd_rtfn which turned out to be a god send because it motivated me to write during the rounds.
So Reaper, thank you for being there for me as a fellow writer, a cheerleader, and last but not least being a fantastic and caring mod!
Next I want to thank my artist, sailorhathor who unknowingly took on a big bang newbie and had endless patience with me and my story. I have to praise once again her incredible artwork that you’ve seen through the story. Her art really improved the story by showcasing the characters and the underlying theme of the story brilliantly. Here is another link to her incredible art! Go and tell her how amazing it is :D
So Sailor, thanks so much and it was a blast working with you!
Finally, I would like to thank my beta the_sammykinz. Sammy, you were so patient and helpful when I had huge writer’s blocks and so encouraging when I attempted to write my first ever fighting scenes. You gave me ideas and constructive criticism which made my story much better than it was. Because of you, the story actually makes sense!
Sammy, thanks again for the incredible beta-job you did.
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