sometimes, i surprise myself at how negative i can be.

and actually how apatheic i can be.

there's a lot more, but not now.

wendsday 13 on thursday 19th.

i feel so sick.
i'm tired of looking like a little boy. I think I'll wear make up tomorrow.
I'm also tired of being so mean in my head.
to the most reandom of people.
mostly just kids at our school.
no one i'm close to though.
but regardless,

I'm really tired of not thinking things through.

i use to think i thought to much.
who knows what

ugh.
i don't want to leave the house today. I have too much cleaning to do, and to much reading to catch up on. annnnd I'm still a little sick.
ew, I know.
but what is there to do?
and plus, other than that and the sudden almost loathsome annoyance of most everyone at school, I'm in a pretty decent mood.

school, you suck.

6:00 is not an hour i need to be awake today.

honestly, if i put what i got for christmas who would read it ( Read more... )

i guess i don't have one of my best friends anymore?

i have no real reason to be like this, I'm pretty happy. for the most part at least. but i feel so disconected with everything going on ( Read more... )

i feel so unsettled about most things.
but only actually settled about one.

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