there gets to a point in life where you just have to laugh at the things that make you sad and convince yourself that maybe just maybe you are better off without someone even though you feel deep down in your heart that you are not. you have to learn that you are the only one that can make yourself happy and stop letting what others do bother you ( Read more... )

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i went home for the weekend. besides all the traffic it was an amazing sober time. i hungout with brian on friday night when i got there at like 130 and that was great, i love that kid. saturday i went to the fair with nick and christina and brittany and saw so many people there, great time. then i went to anthonys and we hungout and talked about ( Read more... )

im so sick of meeting the same old boys everyday that are just tryin to get with girls. i wanna meet a guy that respects me and doesn't want to get in my pants but to actually get to know me. it just seems like that is what boys expect when they meet a girl. i miss having someone to hangout with that respects me and cares for me as a person and ( Read more... )

so...i have bought four cds since ive been here in fl. ones that are way past due me finally getting ( Read more... )

so...since ive been back at school i have been attacked by fire ants twice [apparently they are everywhere in florida]and by misquitos once. i have about 40 misquito bits on each calf then all over the resta my body. i look freakin infected. the fire ants got in my freakin pants last night. yes i had ants in my pants. my whole body is covered. but ( Read more... )

this summer changed alot of ways i look at things in life. i noticed that going out to parties and getting trashed everynight is not fun. there is more to life then that and i want to make more of my life. I want so bad to help my friends that this is all they do but i don't think there is anyway to possibly do this because i have tried and it does ( Read more... )

i think going back to florida is going to help get my mind off alot of things, then again i will be away from all my friends in raleigh that really understand my situations so i will have noone to talk to about them and i will be farther away from the ones making me upset and that may make it even harder on me. it's so hard when you miss someone so ( Read more... )

so... monday i moved out. live with robin now. went to dinner at her grandmas then to wilmington. two days to visit with jacob. when i was in the store there jason from e54 called me and was in wilmington. wtf. so random so chilled at jacobs apt then went to the beach with jason and his bro and family and stuff on tuesday. went back to the apt got ( Read more... )

theres no way to possibly explain what emotions im going through right now. i'm so completely torn and hurt. i cant decide what to do and it's so hard with you not being here. i feel so lonely and i think more confused then i have ever been in my life. its hard knowing that in a few months im going to be going back to florida and will be even ( Read more... )