don't know how i'm alive, don't exactly want to be alive. that's all.

you sit and you wait aned you give and you wait and nothing happens, you try but it fails and you think about what you did wrong but all you can come up with is a hope that has been beaten down slowly and a general sense of apathy along with a distinct distaste or distrust for humankind that chills you to your core and makes you hate what you have ( Read more... )

I feel like I just lost about half a year or so, I didn't write anything down nor was I inspired to. Not in here, not on paper, nowhere. Even at my worst, this has never happend before. I didn't feel a thing. It's been bored and boring and almost always the same, I'm always irritated and can't get happy. Change please.

Nothing's ever good enough to stay except the things that don't stay.

hi, my name is nicole and i'm never hanging out again! love, me.

can't get up, can't get dressed, can't really move, can't eat, can't sleep, can't focus. i used to do a few sudokus a day, but now the numbers all blur up together and i have a serious amount of trouble doing them. i also can't read anything because my eyes blur the words together and sometimes when i read them they don't seem to make any sense ( Read more... )

You know what I have to say to 2005? You sucked, I hated you, and now you're gone. Possibly one of the worst years I've ever had. It was also one of the fastest, and I can remember the least. I will not be sad to see it go. All I can do is hope that next year is better, or at least easier. I'll take the whole year as a test, and seeing that I' ( Read more... )

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thats it. poof gone. maybe now everything will be solved.

I can't do this anymore. The world is going to hell. Everything is so messed up. I don't even know where to start.