lately it feels like i have been ruining everyone's lives. people aren't happy when they are around me anymore. my own parents don't want to be around me. i hate this...it has been bothering me for awhile now. it's like i make people unhappy. i don't try to. i wish i could just move away for awhile...but i know if i did i wouldn't come back.

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i stayed home sick today....and i finally got the sleep that i have needed. lately i have been extremely tired. but i slept for a long time today. then i woke up and finished making a website that i have been working on cuz i was bored. well thats all. buh bye.

~*Jessica*~

http://jessimarie87.tripod.com/                 

i can't wait until spring break. i'm counting down the days until i can go to texas. it will be my first year that i don't have to stay at home. i am a little creeped out about flying by myself. i should have never watched "final destination" with ashley. oh well, it will be alright. well, i guess that's all for now. bye.

~*Jessica*~

wow! i am SO sick of annoying people who don't know when to shut there mouths. HELLO! do people have any common sense at all. i found out some very interesting things a few days ago. i am not going to mention what they were. but they made me dislike someone i already disliked in the first place even more. it is extremely hard for me to dislike ( Read more... )

this week has been interesting. last weekend was mid-winter break. it wasn't very much fun. i did get my first modeling job though....and i made a new friend, jamie. she's really cool. i got to work on tuesday, and wednesday. i had a lot of fun. wednesday night i went to church and ron went with me. today at school we had a class meeting about the ( Read more... )

i hate this. i don't know what's wrong with me anymore. everyday gets worse and i just want to cry myself to sleep everynight. but when i cry i get headaches...and i don't think i could cry anymore...even if i tried to. its like my whole life is just one big mistake after another. i don't even feel like waking up in the mornings anymore...there is ( Read more... )

all this time i thought it had gone away...but it never really did. i wanted to believe it did...and now its back. worse than ever. i thought that telling myself if was gone would actually make it disappear. i don't know what to do anymore....

~*Jessica*~

thursday ashley and i went to the mall...and she almost killed me lik 10 times on the way home. friday i had my first photoshoot...it was so much fun. my next shoot is saturday and i can't wait. today was my first official day of not being grounded.  i got to see ron today. it was the best valentine's day ever! i even got to take a nap..i really ( Read more... )

i seriously can't believe how dumb people are sometimes. people are always doing stupid stuff...and it bothers me...a lot.....

~*Jessica*~

i got grounded on monday because my brother is dumb. this week has been terrible! i got yelled at for losing more weight. yesterday a stack of dictionaries fell off a shelf and 3 of them hit me in the head. today i got to school and found out there was a 2 hour delay. my mom had already gone to work so me, katie, and my brother walked around the ( Read more... )