I just got the call that means I've been fired...again.  I have never been fired from a job.  Not ever.  But I have been fired from 2 clients now.  There is this feeling of helplessness...that I fucked up so badly and I might have harmed my client when the creed of the field of psychology is "do no harm ( Read more... )

Seriously, kids.  So much has happened and I'm exhausted.  In part, I blame my careless packing of my thyroid medication, where I could not access it easily (so I haven't been taking it for 2 weeks) for my exhaustion.  The other part I blame would be my fucking CRAZY schedule.  I have worked 6 out of 7 days for the past 3 weeks, and most of that ( Read more... )

When the world seems to spin out of control, you do what you can to maintain the illusion of control ( Read more... )

How many more times is Randi going to have to come home to find me crying in my room.  Seriously?  We've done this at least once a week for the past three months.  I'm exhausted.  And she's done so beautifully in being supportive.  But I need to stop.  I need to just work on making my situations better.

I feel as though my growth has halted to a deafening stop.  All around me, I hear the happy progress of the people I love...telling me all their plans for the future and it's a not-so-distant future.  This is all well and good.  I have plans too.  However, all my realistic plans are centered around continuing education to keep doing the job that I' ( Read more... )

I am so messed up right now.

I enjoy my job.  I do fun things like blow bubbles with a 4 year old client, take a hula class with a 12 year old client, and there is no love like that of a child.  There is also nothing like a screaming child, and a defensive pre-teen.  And parents...oh GOD, parents.  Parents are the bane of my existence.  Often, they are THE reason their child ( Read more... )

I'm sitting in the Vision house, working an overnight from 10pm to 8am.  My body is rejecting the whole thing because I have not had a decent night of sleep in at least a week and a half.  I'm complaining.  But seriously, never in my life have I been more jealous of anyone so much as I am of these kids and their ability to sleep at night.  Those ( Read more... )

I'll be honest.  I know the stress of the whole finding a job/moving thing is not over.  I know that I still have to training and meeting new people that I will be working for and with and then there's MOVING.  I realize that there is an obscene amount of work to do...helping pack up Randi and Justin's apartment so that they can get new carpet this ( Read more... )

I'm so angry.  I'm so mad at the whole situation.  As screwed as I am right now, I would have been absolutely boned if I planned to stay at Spokandy long term.

Dad asked me Monday, what I would do if romance happened in Spokane.  Turns out, it wouldn't matter anyway.  I kind of feel like I missed the boat on that one and there's just nothing I could ( Read more... )