Now more than ever...

[phoenix_kaji]

...I need help.

For once, I don't even feel like giving everyone an earful of the details of what's happening right now. Probably because I'm actually quite ashamed of myself for once.

...Anyways, if anyone is feeling so bold (or bored?) as to give me advice, I'll listen the best I can. But really, I only want advice if you can back it up. I don't

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[moonpir]

I just read this, and i wishso bad i had the nets at home, so i could listen too.

Look at how much people care, its so great to see that.

I wish i could have talked to you last night.

*massive huggles*

and dont get all logical on this post. We care about you. you're one of a kind.

Anyway, i wish i had more to say but my boss is watching >.<

*more huge huggles*

talk to you soon.

x x

[phoenix_kaji]

Ha, no, no logical blithering right now. *hugs* Just knowing that people care helps.

I've had some rest and feel a bit nemtally better... maybe I'll try to vaccuum the downstaris today.

It's just been so touch-and-go; I am rendered useless by the unpredictable nature of these evil little... *grr*

*hugs again* Look forward to talking to you as well.

[para_chan214]

all i can really do is echo what others have said, hon. i've been struggling myself lately and so am unsure of what i might contribute. i've only been getting any sort of treatment for my depression for two years. i do know this, though --

giving up is the easy way out.

i too have been frustrated on your behalf, watching you zip from medication to medication faster than could easily be followed. it is good to know that you feel your current doctor is really looking at things and paying attention. so i suppose the concern right now is whether or not you are. are you reading the literature that comes with your meds, are you reading about how foods can affect (help/inhibit) medication uptake

[phoenix_kaji]

Oh, you always know lots, you're research-chibi!!! *hugs*

No, I haven't been failing in my reading of small print in pack again (especially with the MAOI, there's a lot to look out for)

I think I'll as my doc about beneficial foods at the next visit.

Unfortunately, I can't stand the texture of oatmeal, but I'll look into finding something to make with real oats that I can eat. Come to think about it, I haven't been eating my normal amount of grains lately because I can't really ..taste them right now. I'll ask mom about that one; she's the cook around here. Something sweet with oats...

veggies... Do snowpeas count? (as a helpful veggie, that is)

[para_chan214]

and, oh yeah --

hair grows back. for males, it even grows back faster! don't regret it. you did something good, and your hair will be healthier for the serious trim and chance to regrow.

[phoenix_kaji]

ha, true, it needed a trim.

o-o ...Come to think of it, at Fanime 06 I'd cut my hair for the fai costume.

(faster for 'regular' males, or would that include me, too? ...but then again, it does seem to grow quickly if it grew that much in one year... uhh....) @_@

[para_chan214]

it's the testosterone, not the birth-gender. ^_~ so yes, that includes you, too. lucky duck!

[phoenix_kaji]

Yaaay!

[crybabymommie]

have you thought of visiting Billy De Frank center for interaction with a group of trans-men,its also a mostly gay center,so I think you'll be inspired and hear some more works/doesn't work treatment stories from people who really know?
its in a fairly neutral neighboorhood,right off Race and West Santa Clara kind of near the train station...I think you should pop in there to see the info boards at least
just remember you are dealing with alot,the trans,comming out to society and adulthood all at once,don't expect to have all the answers from one place {doctors}
you should wear short hair for the rest of the summer and be very overly male lol,and then grow it long for the winter and be very snuggly bear-y,then repeat in cycles,that way the man you end up with will never be bored haha

[phoenix_kaji]

Yeah, I'll try to get out there when I'm semi-functional again. (Right now I'm having bad panic attacks. I'm kinda stuck in the house a lot. :k )

I've always wanted to meet other trans folk, though.

hee hee, then maybe I should randomly dye it or something.