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Why I failed at my attempt to talk to God
In regards to the Ayahuasca trip where I was given the opportunity to meet God ( Read more... ) -
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I did something today that made me ashamed, but was a good wakeup call to make me think about my actions and how I respond to things. Lots of people were pilling on about NCT on FB, and it stirred up a lot of old feelings about the place that I had almost forgotten. Especially about working for Gary and how angry at him I was. I attacked NCT, but ( Read more... ) -
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I think a lot about my mortality and what I should do with the time I've been given. I guess everyone has to decide what they're going to do with their life.. should they give it to others, enjoy as much as they can for themselves, try and create other lives, or what? I often feel like I don't know, and that I might never know.. that my life might ( Read more... ) -
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I guess it's kind of interesting how things go in themes with me. I've been thinking a lot about how much anger I feel lately. I guess I didn't stop to think about where it's been coming from *lately* and just assuming it's the same rage I always feel. I was writing the other day that I pray that God would take my anger away. That would be nice, ( Read more... ) -
hotel california
As I was talking to Dr Weiss about last week - I've been thinking a lot about whether California is making me crazy or if I'm just crazy. I'm also reminded of something I talked to dr blaess about way back when. That I feel like I put a lot of effort into putting on a facade when in reality I'm extremely pissed or bitter.
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A better tomorrow
Lots of shit going on right now. The consequences of bad habits I've had for years are finally coming to a head. I guess I figured, and always have figured that somehow I'd get by. I thought that if I just did the minimum, that would be enough. And I think I figured I had life outsmarted. But at the same time, I wasn't really looking at the big ( Read more... ) -
grrr
Kinda pissed because my phone is missing somewhere in my house.. according to "find my iPhone" anyway ( Read more... ) -
suburbs
Maybe I liked the suburbs because it was like a terrarium that made me feel like I understand the whole world because I could see the boundaries of mine. But when I actually got out in the world, it wasn't as magical as I thought it'd be. It was big and scary, and I still wanted to find a place to hide. Just like thor does. -
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30th bday coming up soon.. not sure what I'd like to do for it. Maybe a vegas trip, or a concert, possibly skydiving.
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suspension of dork belief
After watching Iron Man 2 tonight, I feel the need to wax rhetorical about some nerd shit for a second ( Read more... )