he rechose.
thank god.

he's coming here

my best friend in the whole wide world
is coming here.

i'm ecstastic, and i hope the same for him.

he chose bard.

i'm happy for him

and empty for me.

Now he's leaning towards Bard.

I tried really hard to not get my hopes up about this,
but I guess the thought of seeing him everyday,
was too exciting to let go.

I just miss him,
it's like a lack of oxygen you know?

"well, regardless of what guys and girls like me, i know it'd be really wonderful if i could go to school with you"

you all would be lucky to have him come to this school.

i love my best friend.

I feel incapable all over again.
I have amazing friends.
I'm so sad.

When it rains it pours.

let's talk about life for a second ( Read more... )

do i have a lot of anxiety?

probably.

is the world out to get me?

probably not.

i should stop making it seem that way, that's no good.

My boys were here this weekend ( Read more... )

Last night, was one good night ( Read more... )

Before I wrote an entry that says something along the lines of,
"the truth is, i wasn't good enough for you, so i feel like i'm not good enough for anybody"

that time has past, with that one person.

but i'm seconding that statement again.

i'm anxious for the day that someone proves me wrong.