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penpouring

I can't handle this

Sep 01, 2009 00:20

Seriously breaking down. Under my own pressure to quit smoking and give living a try but I can't. I am very lonely and basically don't have a real life support system. I just drink and think about dying and I know I'm better than that but my happy side won't jostle my depressed side out into playing and having fun with that whole notion. Todd sucks ( Read more... )

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coneycat September 1 2009, 10:50:51 UTC

I'm really sorry you're in such a tough place--it sounds like you've got a lot to deal with. Have you spoken to your health care provider about maybe finding a counsellor or something? My sister has been seeing a "life style coach," which she admits sounds like she should be in California, but the coach was really good at helping her clear out some of the mental debris in her life and look after herself better.

I hope you can find paths to a healthier and happier life. I know from experience how much it sucks to be depressed and exhausted.

*hugs*

4_4_4 September 1 2009, 12:44:02 UTC

This sounds bad.

I don't know the details, but if you've been cut off from friends because of your current relationship, that's probably not good.

I've spiraled down into depths of depression before, and it's not a good trip. Because I'm stubborn, I've tended to let it go far too long before seeking help. I'm gonna' repeat what coneycat has already said: you need to find some professional assistance sooner rather than later.

I know, it can be quite a difficult step to take, and if you're of a similar mindset to me, then you might think, "I can do this on my own--my will ought to be strong enough to shake it off, and get to a better place. Professional help is for Other people," but the truth of the matter is sometimes things are too much for our own little self to cope with, and we do need to seek out the guidance of those who are more able to assist us in dealing directly with the problems at hand ( ... )

sagaciouslu September 1 2009, 21:42:23 UTC

We're still here. Just a phone call, an e-mail, a coffee invite away...

maggi_may January 11 2010, 19:53:48 UTC

Hey friend. It was good to see you around Grey Cup time. You seemed in better spirits than in this entry. But I know you were not far from these feelings ( ... )