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Malta Bright (Four Corners of the Western World Part 2) Chapter 4

Oct 14, 2012 22:18

Title: Malta Bright (part two of Four Corners of the Western World) Chapter 4 of 7
Author: pennypaperbrain
Fandom Sherlock BBC
Betas: Chloe, eldritchhorrors
Rating: NC-17 for this chapter and the fic
Warnings for this chapter: BDSM, figging, depictions of bipolar disorder
Pairing: Sherlock/John
Wordcount: 6,265
Spoilers: All six episodes
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of these ( Read more... )

malta bright, sherlockfic, four corners of the western world

Comments 9

mazaher October 15 2012, 16:07:32 UTC

"He is not like his mother". This stopped me dead in my tracks, because I know the trapped feeling. We all work on what we received through the generations. We can use the best bits (there *are* good bits...) and try to do better. Or we can pick and choose what can be salvaged, and go the opposite way. The most difficult thing is taking the raw material and build something completely different. But even then, like stamps on re-used Roman bricks, an unmistakable signature will sometimes, infuriatingly, pop up. A surprising amount of tolerance is needed for the poor fellows who came before, as well as for oneself. Tolerance is tough stuff, which can only be achieved through peace of mind-- and that is definitely lacking here ( ... )

jcporter1 October 16 2012, 16:24:16 UTC

What is. POL? If its more of this author I would love to know?

mazaher October 16 2012, 16:56:31 UTC

PoL is Points of Light, a powerful S/J love story by pennypaperbrain, posted on AO3. Do go and read. It's unforgettable.

jcporter1 October 16 2012, 18:07:15 UTC

Thank you, I shall.

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jcporter1 October 16 2012, 16:23:29 UTC

My daughter and wife share a mental disorder. Reading this helps me to visualize what is happening in side their minds. Also I know John from my own perspective. The thing is that eventually the love he has for Sherlock will shift to something more parental in nature unless Sherlock can right his ship. Its not that love will wain, but that the constant monitoring changes the affection from exciting and sexual to nurturing and doting.
You already allude to Sherlock recognizing his NEED for John and his fear that John hates him. No where do we hear his love for John.
Can the love that drove him to jump off the building exist alongside the madness?
Just airing the thoughts that surfaced as I read.
This is quite extraordinarily great writing. I feel as if you have a firsthand deep knowledge of Malta and Vegas. And I love Sherlock in his tourist clothes. I love John's handling of the "Scenes". You are an exceptionional talent. I can't wait for the next part!

pennypaperbrain October 16 2012, 20:11:17 UTC

the love he has for Sherlock will shift to something more parental in nature unless Sherlock can right his ship.

Mm. Yes. I think they both tacitly realise that towards the end of the chapter. It's one of the reasons Sherlock is quite so desperate not to lose the plot while scening. He does love John - that's why he called him at the end of Vegas High - but at the moment he's so busy surviving that it doesn't really come through. There's going to have to be some overt John-loving soon or the strain will start to show. And we may well see this in the next fic in the series.

I'm really glad this helps you understand some of the issues in a way that's relevant to your own life. One of the reasons I'm writing it is that when I found out I was bipolar and went on a research tear I found surprisingly little material that I felt represented my personal experience.

jcporter1 October 16 2012, 20:39:29 UTC

There is another bbcsherlock writer on lj and I always mispell her name but I believe it is Ununpendium. She writes a nice bit on Sherlock with Borderline Personality.
Also Wordstrings does an inside out Sherlock that I find fascinating.

I don't mean to make light of your condition. I do find your explaination of walled rooms, and losing and recreating each moment to explain so much of my daughter's behavior. She has been diagnosed by one therapist with bipolar, but she quickly rejected that and stopped seeing him.
I do think you are doing a great servise to the world by writing this all down.
I hope you find sources of information and hope.

pennypaperbrain October 16 2012, 21:06:39 UTC

Oh I certainly didn't think you were making light. I'm lucky enough not to be significantly ill very often.

People with bipolar often reject the diagnosis for a long time before accepting it. That's the opposite of my experience - I figured out the problem for myself, which apparently is so rare a thing that it made the psychiatrist think I couldn't have the condition and must be imagining it (!!) - but I understand it is very common. I hope your daughter can find some explanation and tratment that works for her.