Amazing stuff...I totally called it. Apparently I'm a prophetic drunk...The past 3 months since the last drunken update I have felt exactly like I thought I would. Good News...I'm putting a stop to it...no more GD delusions...no more accepting shit as it is and working with it...Fuck it! I gotta keep this shit pushin'...Cha Chai is back and ( Read more... )

so...yeah...been home sick for the past day and half...which normally wouldn't be so terribly bad...but we don't have cable...and really...we don't have TV...I swear I'm going to die.

If you pursue something for an extended period of time...being unsuccessful for whatever reason...and you get to a point when distracting yourself from the pursuit is much more pleasant than the pursuit...is it time to stop?

You know that feeling you get when everything seems out of your control...somewhat like flailing in water...there's nothing you can do and all the things you do seem to make the situation worse...That's what I'm feeling, and if I were lost somewhere in a lake and couldn't reach shore, I would just sit still and wait...but I think with social ( Read more... )

Why do I let things get to me?...Why do I allow things to happen to me?...Why I am I a complete and total failure to myself?...Why am I so masochistic?...Why?

Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. Loneliness is more than just the feeling of wanting company or wanting to do something with another person. Loneliness is a feeling of being cut off, disconnected, and/or alienated from other people, so that it feels difficult or even ( Read more... )

Apparently, "The Golden Rule" need not apply here...but thanks for playing.

So...I freaked the fuck out Saturday night in Placentia, CA...sounds kind of random, likely for the people that were there too ( Read more... )

I can't figure it out...why is it so difficult? I made a fucking decisions, so, why don't I just follow through? It's not what I want by any stretch of the imagination...which is why it's hard, but, why do I put myself through it? Everything is more intense...which really sucks for when I'm not feeling terribly well. I don't, however, think I ( Read more... )

Respect...what happened to it ( Read more... )