I think, more than anything, I'm afraid of Steve coming back and not wanting this with the same passion that I do. The longer he waits, the more I think he doesnt feel what I feel. I dont want the "well, might as well try one more time" solution. I want you, to want me, as much as I want you.

Hung out w/ Steve last night. Ordered a pizza. Watched a movie. Did my taxes. lol. Sat by each other on the same couch.. and thats about as close as we got all night :( I keep hoping for the moment he comes back and says I want to be with you and only you and I know this will work ( Read more... )

Friday the county where I work had a level 3 snow emergency so NO WORK AGAIN! Still had to do some managerial crap from home, but hey, I'm salary so I was getting paid either way. Finally a perk to salary pay!! Friday night, went to PF Changs with Dusto, Steve, and Stacy. Good food. Watched My Best Friends Girl which was better than I expected. Was ( Read more... )

Steve is the most confusing person I know. Its like some days, he wants to be with me, and the next, he's not so sure. What happened to "I'll always turn the car around"?? Ugh. Last night I told him I wouldnt text him or anything unless he did me first. That way he gets the time he needs. I'm tired of this back and forth. I just he could make up ( Read more... )

So it sounds like Steve and I are going to try again.. I've told him what I love about him and us. Talked to him about our problems and how I want to fix them. One problem.. I havent gotten anything back from him.. ? Makes me question if he really wants this, or if he just figures me might as well try it out. He needs to want this as much as I do ( Read more... )

Okay so Steve and I talked a lot last night. And a little today. I invited him over for dinner tonight to finish our convo but because of the foot of snow falling between today and tomorrow, probably not the best idea. He's going to come out w/ us Friday night tho. He says he pretty much has his mind made up as to what he's going to do so I'm a ( Read more... )

Oh this is ridiculous I know. Third post of the day. Just going crazy and need to vent. This is at least better than venting the same crap to the girls over and over.. or texting Steve ( Read more... )

Just talked to Steve. Says he's "closer" to getting his mind straightened out. Just feels like a tease. His only question was "Youd be okay with me going on that trip right?" Even Kari was thinking, well if you're going on a trip with your roomies & other girls, wouldnt you want your gf coming along? Grrr. Pisses me off bc I want that to be us. I ( Read more... )

I'm going stir crazy. Cant stop thinking about it. I just ran. Again. And now posting again so I dont text Steve. If he wants to talk to me, he will. I dont want to keep butting my nose in places he doesnt want it ( Read more... )

I asked Steve to join me and watch a movie at the condo tonight. Said he had plans to sit around with Screech. So last night he says he loves me. Tonight, he blows me off to do nothing ( Read more... )