You know, this chapter was such a hard write, and I was so terrified of getting it WRONG, and not LISTENING properly, or listening from the wrong ANGLE, and I did, I did all those things, and I wrote them and then I had to go back and rewrite them listening to the right things from the right angle. And all the time I am wondering: why can't I just get it right the first time. Why do I always have to do everything every wrong way there is, before I get to the right way? Why am I so STUPID
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never never never be sorry, it's why I love writers (okay, amazing writers mostly- okay you), it's why I read (hasn't changed since I was under the covers past the bedtime with a flashlight way way back when), it's why there are books/stories I go to again and again no matter how much they hurt the first time. Because I need them, crave them, exist better because of them. You are amazing, you are profoundly amazing, and this....Blind Spot, does what the BEST of stories do, it hurts because you made us care about the world between these pages and the characters that inhabit that world and all the physical reactions to them just prove that. Don't you dare be sorry. It was fucking amazing, which doesn't mean you didn't upset my stomach, but I'll live.
reread what I'd already written in reply and just needed to lighten my ass up a bit. Okay, lightening up. Kermit's doing the banjo thing and I am just so going with it.
You know how when you're reading fic, and the characters just aren't clicking in your head, don't seem real, and you're wondering who these people are cause they aren't your boys. Well this isn't one of those fics. This shit rocks hard!!! I see the characters so clearly in my head. I keep looking at my TV, expecting to see this shit playing out on screen. In frickin' high def! And the tension. OMG!
I'm not feeling very coherant right now to express the ways I love this story, but I'm anxious for the finale, but depressed too that it's gonna be over.
*hugs you so tight your eyeballs pop out your head*
I am super-thrilled my boys are down with your boys. And your boys is my boys, and my boys is your boys. We haz the boys. *waggles hand between us* You and I. This is very cool.
I am a bit depressed it's going to be over, too. This has taken up far too much of my waking brain for the better part of five months. It's going to be weird. Not having it hanging round my neck like the albatross it is. I love it, but it's a fucking albatross.
Thanks a bunch for reading, dude. Love that your lovin' it. :)
I am a bit depressed it's going to be over, too. This has taken up far too much of my waking brain for the better part of five months. It's going to be weird. Not having it hanging round my neck like the albatross it is. I love it, but it's a fucking albatross.
Well, from my point of view, your albatross has been worth every suffering minute. *hugs* Has this been your hardest story to write?
I was browsing thru your journal, and discovered new treasures. In your Keepsies I found unread fic, Crossing Business and Raincheck, and they look long too. It's like Christmas morning!
OMG...Dragons...OMFG! You are trying to kill me! I am in a complete state of shock! Because holy shit this was magnificent! My gut is doing the hula hoop around my ankles, because how in the hell are you going to fix these boys?!?!? Holy Hell!
This chappy was just so heartbreaking. Case and point: That kid in there is all I have, and he is the only thing in my entire goddamn life, besides killing things, that I’ve gotten right. He should have written him a letter, back at the house. Left it someplace in the car where Sam would find it later. He wished he’d written him a letter. “He wouldn’t deal.” The confession stoked the hot coals of failure, sent another salty wash from Dean’s eyes. *sob
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NO. I am not SPECIFICALLY trying to kill you. Did it cross my mind, that it might be an unexpected perk - fangirl extermination? Of course it did. Who hasn't thought that? But it wasn't my PRIMARY OBJECTIVE here.
*titters*
I am very pleased to have broken your heart in the apporpriate places. And you love to hate Meg. I mean, that just makes me SING. *sings*
Thanks a bunch for waiting and reading and generally being awesome. :)
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Because I need them, crave them, exist better because of them.
You are amazing, you are profoundly amazing, and this....Blind Spot, does what the BEST of stories do, it hurts because you made us care about the world between these pages and the characters that inhabit that world and all the physical reactions to them just prove that.
Don't you dare be sorry.
It was fucking amazing,
which doesn't mean you didn't upset my stomach, but I'll live.
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Okay, lightening up.
Kermit's doing the banjo thing and I am just so going with it.
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It's okay, dude. I fucked him up. I know. The writer is AWARE. *titters*
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I'm not feeling very coherant right now to express the ways I love this story, but I'm anxious for the finale, but depressed too that it's gonna be over.
*hugs you so tight your eyeballs pop out your head*
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I am super-thrilled my boys are down with your boys. And your boys is my boys, and my boys is your boys. We haz the boys. *waggles hand between us* You and I. This is very cool.
I am a bit depressed it's going to be over, too. This has taken up far too much of my waking brain for the better part of five months. It's going to be weird. Not having it hanging round my neck like the albatross it is. I love it, but it's a fucking albatross.
Thanks a bunch for reading, dude. Love that your lovin' it. :)
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Well, from my point of view, your albatross has been worth every suffering minute. *hugs* Has this been your hardest story to write?
I was browsing thru your journal, and discovered new treasures. In your Keepsies I found unread fic, Crossing Business and Raincheck, and they look long too. It's like Christmas morning!
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This chappy was just so heartbreaking. Case and point:
That kid in there is all I have, and he is the only thing in my entire goddamn life, besides killing things, that I’ve gotten right.
He should have written him a letter, back at the house. Left it someplace in the car where Sam would find it later. He wished he’d written him a letter.
“He wouldn’t deal.” The confession stoked the hot coals of failure, sent another salty wash from Dean’s eyes. *sob ( ... )
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NO. I am not SPECIFICALLY trying to kill you. Did it cross my mind, that it might be an unexpected perk - fangirl extermination? Of course it did. Who hasn't thought that? But it wasn't my PRIMARY OBJECTIVE here.
*titters*
I am very pleased to have broken your heart in the apporpriate places. And you love to hate Meg. I mean, that just makes me SING. *sings*
Thanks a bunch for waiting and reading and generally being awesome. :)
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