Hello, Freedom! And STILL There Are Prisons. Phooey.

[pdragon76]

 
Hello FREEDOM.  How are you?  Long time, no see…

This, peoples, is gonna take some getting used to.  But I’m entirely up for the challenge. J

So, second day in of SELF EMPLOYMENT, and I have made myself $0.00.  Heeeeee.  Well, technically I’m on self-appointed annual stress leave until December 1st.  Possibly longer.  *looks at bank account*  Um

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[riverbella]

Babe, you're feeling the Freedom, but don't think that doesn't mean you aren't also feeling the stress. Change is a bitch, even if it's probably change for the good in the long run. I'm not telling you anything you don't know, I'm sure, but your brain is craving an old, familiar hiding place. Hang in there. Write. Commune with horse!Sam. Talk to your friends and fliends. And if you slip, you can pick yourself up again and fly because you're the Dragons and the Dragons always flies again.

*love and strong thoughts your way*

[pdragon76]

*smiles* You is a wise one. And yeah. I know. I was thinking today, I have known addict-Dragons for 31 years but I have really only known sober-Dragons for 18 months. So I hardly really KNOW her at all. Which makes me feel very unsafe sometimes because... well, I don't really know if I can trust her or rely on her. And that's an odd feeling. *frowns*

How is Riverbella? Husband!Sam? Are the Dragons *waggle fingers* reaching you guys? Also? Did your pants explode? Epi Seven? HOLY FUCK.

[riverbella]

I'm good. Sam is improving (knock on wood). Pain is becoming more manageable with less medication. He still has to sleep on the couch, though, because the waterbed bothers him somehow. I hate to sleep alone. Besides, with the cooler weather coming on, he makes a great bed heater! One of my cats has been cuddling with me at night, but she just doesn't have as much surface area! So, yeah, the fingers reached and many thanks for that.

Explode? It was nuclear. Caused a chain reaction and blew out my whole underwear drawer! That final scene just left me in a little puddle of goo on the floor. (It was a bitch to get the stain out of the rug once I reconstituted!) My brain knows everything will work out in the end, but it shuts down and I get dragged along by my gut every time. Holy Fuck, indeed.

One day, one breath at a time

[kayto1]

Change is a big bad and a wedding where there is booze a plenty is not the place to doubt your courage or commitment.

You can do this. You have done this. You will continue to do this.

Thinking of it in terms of never having a drink again is focusing on the negative. It is living your life on the terms that you want and that you choose. You've made an amazing and a hard choice. But it is a choice you can LIVE with. As in LIVE YOUR LIFE. Enough with the nevers! The nevers are reserved for the bads - I will NEVER let alcohol control my life again.

You are a DRAGON. And you can do this.

Now, breathe. A lot.

And have some pie. You have fucking earned the pie.

And, while enjoying the pie, give me the finger for being preachy. But then breathe again and enjoy your life.

*off to get myself some pie. But of the cherry variety as that is my favorite.

Re: One day, one breath at a time

[pdragon76]

Can I just say I love you. I really, really do. Thank you for thinking I have earned the pie.

Here. Have some thighs. *points to icon* The Monkeys has made us thighs. Enjoy.

Re: One day, one breath at a time

[kayto1]

And I meant to say this:
I BELIEVE IN YOU.

Really, I do. What you have posted and shared show your strength and courage.

So, again: I BELIEVE IN YOU. YOU ARE DRAGONS.

And, oh my....the ....thighs....not appropriate for work thoughts....

Re: One day, one breath at a time

[pdragon76]

*tackle hugs you, runs away*

I'm a go to bed now. :-) Have a fabtabulous day, Kate.

[muffaletta]

Sending Dragons good thoughts

*hugs*

I wanted to write something profound and inspiring but honestly, I was afraid it would just sound pretentious. And your friends posted words much wiser than anything I could have come up with. But for what it's worth, I think you're brave and strong and I know you're going to be okay. But, is true, the journey, it is hard....

[pdragon76]

But for what it's worth, I think you're brave and strong and I know you're going to be okay

Muffaletta, you rockin' chickadee...when you live by yourself, and you is a solitary beast, as the Dragons does and is, sometimes what you said up there is the ONLY thing I need to hear. And I just need to hear it from someone who isn't ME.

So thank you for saying it. :-)

[ex_skewedso]

Ohhhhhhh, I didn't know you had an issue with the liquid beast...but if you need to talk to anyone about it, you let me know. My daddy has been drinky-free for 5 years. YOu ARE strong enough!

[pdragon76]

Hey, tell your dad how awesome he is. This shit is HARD. And thank you very much for your kind offer and thoughts.

:-) Much appreciated, dude. Hope you're feelin' better on the Shelby front.

[pdragon76]

Thanks a bunch, rinkle. *hugs you back* Much appreciated. It's a good news day today, so things are lookin' up for the Dragons. :-)