Comments | pawthos: Long time no post

pawthos

Long time no post

May 11, 2010 09:13

I've been have a long dark tea time of the soul, many reasons for this, my partner had health issues, I hurt some friends with things I said, on going family issues. For these reason I've had to spend some time searching deep within myself for the questions, before I could start searching for answers. I've never been good at talking about my issues ( Read more... )

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cuboz May 12 2010, 06:23:40 UTC

OMG Becky! It's YOU!

And on a SERIOUS note, have you ever thought of therapy? Medication? It took me ages to do it, but I like to think I'm pretty much an easy-going, drama-free person because of it...

xxx

pawthos May 13 2010, 01:34:53 UTC

Tried and failed as I find I Masque my feeling and hide behind what I think the Therapist wants to hear, Alan has helped as I gave my word that I won't lie to him and even thou talking about my feelings, at times, feels like I'm pulling barbed hooks from my body, I this talk to him about everything. Even typing this has me shaking.

madisonbear May 13 2010, 02:25:34 UTC

**hugs** Garth!

I know what it's like to have a lot of rage pent up. It always seems to seep back into me...so hugs again to you.

It's a wonderful thing to have such a caring partner. As you said, we're all a work in progress and i'm sure you'll just keep getting better!

glad you're posting again. people miss you. :)

(hugs)
Ted

pawthos May 13 2010, 05:56:32 UTC

I need times in my cave, once I have centered myself I'll come back, but at times I'll go into my cave and work things out.

I've been here, hiding in the back, been reading your posts and wanting to reply but been at a lost for words. I'm very envious of your talents, singing is a big thing I would love to be able to do, when I sing people laugh and not in the good way, I understand how the song "For Good" can hold such meaning, as it always makes me think of my friend Aramis, he who talked me out of killing myself, "Because I knew you, I have been changed for good" very true words in my case.

Sorry will need to stop this reply, as I'm at work and can't let myself cry here, another thing I envy about you Ted, Public displays of emotion, they are right and good for us all, still I can't allow myself to do them.

Most of what I want to say to you Ted is how your beautiful soul shines through in all you do and write about. HUGS to you.

pawthos May 13 2010, 05:57:26 UTC

oh and if I could sing, the song I'd sing for you is "don't Cry" by Seal.