who are you to think you're better?
who are you to pass me by?
you are someone else's dissapointment too.
the embodiment of someone else's grief.

I reach for a lover,
I reach for a friend...
someone to assuage the emptiness
all consuming
hungry as fire

I suffocate in your indifference
you are the embodiment of
my self-hatred

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Claustraphobia
Paranoia

... to fill the void...

I wander in my own confusion
I revel in my self isolation

I fell into the abyss
I drowned.
I died.

Today.

discard me
rape me
abuse me

appearantly, I like it.

I'll grovel at your feet
for a moment of your attention

or a dollar...
whichever you can spare.

the story of a girl unloved
belittled
I am at your mercy...

forever tainted.

there is no going back because
NO ONE LOVES A WHORE.

Easter Sunday

Put on my sunday dress...
  ...walked right into this mess...

Just wish I could have
watched her 
take that
final
breath...

what does someone do...
when all the
lies
you hear are
true?

What does someone say...
when they
never thought
they'd see the day...
the whole world
came crashing down.

Fifteen minutes...

Wipe ( Read more... )

The moon...
illumintating your face.

The cold, wet grass
         ...on my skin.

Your kisses... 
that taste of
cheap wine...
           ...and cigarettes..

Somehow I thought...
I could trust you.

Somehow I thought...
you were safe.

Somehow I thought...
I could love you.

Your likeness
conjours

frag
          men
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Letter to an Alcoholic

Drink away the nights
my friend,
and try
to sleep away the days...

... And try to
               escape
the living nightmare that
replays itself, day
after miserable day...

You can run.

But you cannot hide,
your problems always
one step behind
in the
exhausting chase
that
is
life.

-A. Delgadillo-

Tyrant

Tell me...
What is it that you hold sacred?
Tell me...
What is it that you hold dear?

Let me userp...
every
ounce
of your strength.

Let me corrupt...
every
thing
that is pure.

Let me destroy...
every
ounce
of your happiness.

And leave you to rot in the dark.

There is no light
at the end of this tunnel.
You are at
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In the Back Seat at the Drive In

She's Daddy's little girl,
And now you've got her on her back,
She's Daddy's little girl,
Time to test her in the sack.

Another notch in your belt,
Another feather in your cap,
She's Daddy's little girl you know,
And she wishes she could go back.

Where has your innocence gone, little girl
The days you were free and pure?
They' ( Read more... )

White Picket Fence

It's made to look so easy --
This thing called life
I feel myself decaying
Collapsing from the inside out
Little by little each day,
Slipping farther and farther away...
Save me from this personal hell,
This mental anguish that only I inflict.
What I would give to pick...
And choose the parts to love.
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Magdalene

And I feel that I should die
Drain my shame and blame
Nothing ever stays the same

Smell my sin
Pungent sweetness in my pores
Bells in my ears
Crimson, sore
I take one more
I've become your Catholic whore

Spare the rod
Spoil the child
Look the father in the eye
No way to save me
And I feel that I should die.

-A.Delgadillo-