Eeep. Kripke, you magnificent bastard.

[patita_fea]

Continuing that...  Sam adopts the manners of the company he's in, be they blue collar folks or swanky champagne drinkers.  He learns the landscape and tries to fit in, usually with a high rate of success.  But we've seen Dean at the Blake's auction house and at the little soiree in 'Red Sky.'  He knows the rules are different.  He knows he's

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[erinrua]

It's too late at night for me to be teribly thinky, but I will say ... I think you're right. Dean changes tactics, and Sam changes Sam.

To me, it often seems an act of desperation for a man who's increasingly growing to feel that he *can't* change anything else. Sam has always been about getting and keeping control, and he's at his most volitile when control has been stripped away. He doesn't necessarily want to run everything his way, but he wants things to make sense, to have order, to have a solution or cure.

But now he's found out that really ... most things just don't answer, and he's pretty much helpless to change the things that really matter. Can't save Dean. Couldn't save Jess. Couldn't even recognise the signs in time to save Dad. The only change Sam knows he can affect ... are those to himself.

Which is actually kind of sad, because making the choice to sacrifice who you are, as opposed to Dean sacrificing himself, is a terrible thing. But I suspect Sam doesn't see any other way. It's war, he's noted already,

[patita_fea]

Oh, you got day-um thinky, and I luvs it! Thanks so much for indulging me

[erinrua]

Well, I wanted to come back to continue this discussion, but I think the season premiere has melted my brain. *g*

So I'll just say THANK YOU for sharing your thoughts, listening to mind, and enabling me to exersize some rather neglected meta muscles. :-) Thank you for the conversation!

[patita_fea]

Premiere brain melt! It's a pandemic!

:) My pleasure, my pleasure. I'm always vaguely shell-shocked when someone chooses to listen to my rambling, and very gratified when they choose to respond. And hey, we've got a whole new year of canon coming down the pipe to fuel us!