I think I failed to inform everyone or anyone that I have a new journal.

jessindetroit

You may add or stalk as you will, as I only update when I feel like it and it rarely is of any importance. (but whose really is, right?)

But it is summer so you can expect a lot of friend drama, work drama, family drama, boyfriend drama, some sexin' love scenes, bitching ( Read more... )

So things with Yuval are going swimmingly.  I like em.

Mom lost her job so I'm assuming I'm going to need to get like 5 more to support us.

AWESOME!

And my car is like going to die.  Unless I save up $1000 to fix it.

fml.

Everything I ever thought I knew, my whole idea of morals and values and my whole perspective of living has been turned completely upside down.

I feel free.

BLAH BLAH BLAH!!!!! I HATE THIS.

I am SO confused.

I'm not sure if I'm just really shallow, or not willing to be hurt again.

I have surgery in a week. 
Maybe if I'm lucky something horrific will happen and I won't wake up.
But that's just wishful thinking.

I hate being so confused wahh.

Been going to the gym lately.  There is this cute Israeli guy that works at the mall, and he looks just like Bram.   But he's cool as hell, even if he has a girlfriend. Quote "isn't it ironic."    But I got his number, so that's  start.  woeeeee is meeeeeeeeeee.

I've come about (-) that close to emailing him right now. This second. And I know I can't. I should not!!! At all contact him.  I am NOT weak. I am NOT wasting all my time thinking of him and I do not intend to just give myself to him any longer.  Why do I do this to myself. FUCK ( Read more... )

Every little thing I do ( Read more... )

Dear ex-boyfriend,
   I'm sure missing you a whole hell of a lot right now.