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[pasajera]

Still wondering what I want to be when I grow up.

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[bilunabirotunda]

You and me both, girl! And I realized I'm halfway to 70 with this bday! Don't know why 35 should have made me feel so much older than 20 or 30 or anything. Didn't even notice 34. Must be all those hynotizingly round numbers. On the other hand, my mother also says this and she's in her 60s. So maybe some people never grow up? Or never *are* just one thing? I think that's me, and possibly you. Saying something like "I'm an editor" is cool in a way, but so odd because it excludes other things. When I was little I decided I wanted to be a Renaissance Woman, and I guess that is still what I want - ???

Just wrote a little list of things I might like to do today: this topic is big in my mind just now. Are you feeling restless?

[pasajera]

I think my worry is that I'm not feeling as restless as I should be. I kind of like my dumb job that seems to revolve mostly around fixing paper-jams and photocopying checks and showing other people how to do very simple things on the computer (for the 4th time) and showing hikers how to find the bathroom.

And that's what has me worried, is my loss of momentum. A part of my brain is itching to go study entomology, but that would be so...disruptive to the daily routine. And then even if I do get a masters in entomology, I would most likely be stuck at a desk fixing paper jams in a different office, wouldn't I?

I can feel the tide of complacent mediocrity lapping around my knees...*shudder*

[isle_of_woman]

You are a wonderfully talented artist - you certainly could make a career of that somehow. :D

[pasajera]

Aww, thanks for the vote of confidence.

The question of whether or not talent ever manages to connect to career opportunities is a tricky one though, isn't it?

(Notice how I'm avoiding the question of whether talent is something I actually have going on here...*grin*)

[graymalkn]

You should be someone who makes wonderful pictures of toads (and, I suppose, chuckwallas) for certain people to get as Christmas presents.

Is this more a question of what you want to do for money, what you want to do in general, or what you want your most prominent characteristics to be?

[pasajera]

Hooray for the toad! I'm glad you like it, that makes me very happy.

This question (which I'm evidently revisiting today at long last) stemmed from the quandry of "What computer should I buy to replace the old one?" Which quickly boils down to the question of, "Should I spend money of electronic gadgets that are good tools for professional illustrators, when I am realistically spending 95% of my 'work' time doing stuff that is in no way related to illustration?"

And then I start getting all mad at myself for being content with a non-profit middle-management job. Pfff.

[moonlitcirce]

I remember when we were 11 on Catalina Island, you said a mermaid. And you said absolutely not an English teacher when we were in 8th grade because there'd be too many papers to read. ;-)

[pasajera]

A mermaid, really? That's trippy. I freaked out during the Catalina trip and was too scared to go in the water on snorkeling day. I would make a lousy mermaid as regards the whole living-in-the-ocean thing.

I'd do OK as a harbor seal basking on the beach, though. *grin*