Easter was pretty good, just my mom, my brother, and I. My dogs got in a fight again, but I was the only one that got hurt this time. I didn't even realize until I went to the bathroom and saw blood on my chin ( Read more... )

Does it make you feel like a man to see her cry, to see her skin turn black and blue courtesy of you? The bruises may have faded and the scars may have healed, but the pain is still here, a constant reminder of the monster that hides inside of you. You can drink until the room goes black, but when you wake it will still be there, your nagging ( Read more... )

Things are getting better now. I finished my World History today, so no more history for me! I seriously hate history. My brother is back home, and he had a great time on tour. However, he is leaving agin in about two weeks for a longer tour. Over the weekend I watched the Fall Out Boy DVD and the Underoath DVD, and it is apparent that guys do ( Read more... )

I want to cry so badly, but my eyelids serve as dams as I force them shut with such determination, afraid of what might come out ( Read more... )

Well the last several days have been pretty life affirming. My brother and I talked until really late at night last week about our dad. How he isn't there for us, and how it seems like he doesn't really care. We, actually mostly me, see him every Monday and Thursday for dinner and such and every other weekend. He never talks to us, nor listens ( Read more... )

Yay it is raining!! Only a little bit. I want it to rain more, harder. Over the summer, I really experienced how much fun it is to get soaked in the rain. Granted, I was trying to save a dog from getting hit by a car, but it felt amazing to not worry about getting wet, to just let it happen ( Read more... )

You are the letters I scrawl in my journal
the words only met for You
every i that I dot and t that I cross is done for You
You are what I longed for in entries of old,
the only thing missing in entries of late
I've waited for You, my writing is proof
my pen asks the question,
my heart waits for your answer

I was feeling so weird today, I would feel real happy and hopeful, then sad and depressed. It was too weird. I didn't feel better until I came home and wrote it out. That usually seems to do the trick. I figured out what was truly bothering me, I just felt so hopeless and alone ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a pretty painful day. I woke up and when I reached over to turn off my alarm I hit my eye on the corner of my sidetable. It hurt really bad, but I was still half asleep so I decided to go back to sleep. My eye still hurts. Later I had to go to the dentist to get a filling. The dentist said that he thought he could fill it using ( Read more... )

Today I was like 45 minutes late to school b/c I couldn't find this damn disk to copy my research report on, so I had to go buy some new ones. I called my teacher, Dena, but I said I would only be 15 minutes late ooops! She wasn't mad when I finally got there, but I had to rush to finish my report and bibliography before the center closed. She ( Read more... )