Fresh start chapter 33
Series: Fresh start
Chapter: 33
Written by: Parishs
Rating: pg-13
Summary: Reid is a neuro surgeon in Dallas with a burn out who tries to figure out what life is really about (Reid's POV).
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Thanks to zzzfreckles (Pamela) for the beta!!!
PREVIOUS CHAPTER
"Come on baby, we need a break", I said and put away the hammer and screws. I looked at my determined man and kissed his wet cheek.
He definitely looked sexy in an overall. We were busy all morning making fences for my horse but it was raining and I felt my wet underwear clinging against my legs. I was tired and cold but he didn't want to stop. He was so strong although he had been sitting behind a desk for years, his arm muscles flexed when he hauled the heavy beams.
When we came in I saw a basket on the counter and the smell of fresh coffee entered my nose. There was only one person who could have done this: Emma. We searched for her everywhere but she just dropped the food and made coffee before she left.
It was care that I had to get used to. It meant so much to me that Luke's family adopted me and took me into their circle. For someone who always tried to be his own man I had to acclimatize and Luke helped me with that. We almost had our first fight last night when Aaron delivered the wood.
"Where's the bill?", I asked when Aaron wanted to leave.
"It's already paid Reid", Aaron said and sat down in his car.
"By whom?", I asked.
"Luke of course", he said and nodded at his brother.
"How much is it, I am going to pay you back", I said.
Aaron looked at Luke and whistled. "That's good for a change", he said.
"Stop bitching Aaron, this is none of your business", Luke said a little agitated.
"Now don't start a fight over money guys, have a great weekend and if I have time I am coming to help you. Make love not war".
I smirked and we waved while he drove away. "I am serious Luke; I want to pay you back".
The smile on his face froze. "And why is that Reid?", he asked. "Do you want to prove that you are independent? Why don't you accept that I paid for this?
"Because it's my house and I want to pay for what I ordered, is that so strange?", I asked not understanding why this was such a big deal to him.
"Maybe we need to discuss this Reid", Luke said softly.
I shrugged and while I washed my hands I looked at the man I loved so much. Every day I discovered things about him that surprised me, little things and huge ones like this. I grabbed glasses and something to drink and with a head-shake I invited him on my porch.
"Okay Luke, tell me why this is such a big deal? I said.
He looked in the distance before he answered; it took him a while until he had gathered his thoughts. "It's just.... I don't know Reid, I never think about money, have you ever Googled me?".
"No, should I?', I asked. "Have you looked me up?
He nodded.
"When?", I asked flabbergasted.
"When Aaron texted me about you", he said softly. "I don't know why I do it, its second nature I guess, since my dad kidnapped me to Malta I am superstitious, I want to be certain that the people I love are protected. And I know they are because we have security but I want to be sure".
"You have been kidnapped?", I asked.
"Yes but that's not what this is about Reid, don't drift. I am going to tell you someday, but this is about us".
"You have security checking on you and your family?", I said stunned.
"Yes", he said. "Having money is not just a fun thing you know".
His words reeled me but I wanted to stay close to the subject we were talking about. "Okay, no I never Googled you, should I have? What would I have discovered? How much money you have? How many guys you screwed? What?".
He couldn't believe that I was sincere. "You don't like control do you?", he said.
"It was my middle name when I was living in Dallas Luke", I said softly. "But Peter teached me to let it go, it's a burden. I moved here with nothing, knowing no one, this whole adventure was an exercise in letting go because it made me sick.
I have to confess that I have had doubts about us when I met you, when I saw you working in your office I got dizzy and hyper and I didn't want that anymore so I tried to take a step back but that didn't work, I am addicted to you, stressed or not.
But to be honest I am so glad that you decided to step out of the stock market. Working should be fun especially when you are loaded Luke. And now you brought it up, how much are you worth?
"A lot of zeroes", he said and looked apologetic. "But it doesn't feel like mine Reid, most of it I inherited or was sent to me. Blood money, blackmail money, bribe money, my dad had a whole range of names for it. So don't make a big deal about paying me back for the beams please".
"There's so much about you that I don't know", I said and caressed his face, he looked so sad all of a sudden. "How much was it? Just curious, I am going to accept this gift from you, thank you".
He got really shy all of a sudden. "It's not a gift Reid; I just paid for some wood. I am living in your house for free; if we are going to put every little detail on a scale it's going to be very complicated. Are you afraid that things get messy, is that it? Do you want this to be your house and I can't pay anything? So if we break up this place is just yours? What's behind this issue?".
I leaned forward and kissed his mouth. I wanted to undress him and pull him against me but this had to be talked out or it would stay between us forever so I tried to catch my worries in words.
"I really don't know why I am making such a big deal about this Luke", I said. "I guess I am not used to sharing and I am not used to being with someone. I am independent and I have to learn to accept that you want to contribute to my house.
It is going to be our house you know, since you moved in I am happy. Happy that we are so fluid together, that everyday life is going so smoothly. Sometimes you bring in groceries and other times I do, it's okay. But this....I am not used to someone taking care of me".
Luke looked up and our eyes locked. It was good that we sometimes were forced to talk about the bigger issues but it was all in good way, the trust between us made that we could ask what we wanted to know.
"I love you Reid", he said and caressed my hand with his thump. "And about the beams, I have no idea how much it was, Aaron send the bill to Noah and he paid. If you really want to know I am going to call him".
I shook my head and closed my eyes for a second; of course, Noah took care of things until the end of the month and then he would hand the whole thing over to Nathalie, Luke's sister. She was an accountant and Luke asked her to manage his financial things.
"Why are you keeping everything in the family?", I asked a little more agitated than I wanted. "Noah, your brother and sister, everyone is involved in your life, don't you need a little privacy? Or is it the discount?".
Luke tilted my head and kissed my lips deliberately; "Noah is not a threat", he whispered "and neither is my family. I don't like to brag but you have to know that I take care of my own.
When Aaron is bringing the beams here I pay him more than they cost. I don't like charity but I want to help my family. The money just fell into my lap and I hated it for a long time, but now my family and I have accepted it and they accept that I support them one way or another. They don't hold up their hand but I support them in paying for an education or a business. We are all working for our money and my extra money is just icing on the cake.
I am just grateful that I have a family I love and that they love me back, not for my money but for me as a person Reid. It's suffocating sometimes but to be embedded in a clan like this is all what matters in life.
And I am so grateful that you are here as well. I hope that one day you feel a part of the clan as well Reid. But it's up to you to see how fast and how far you want to go, everything is okay. I know you are your own man and I don't want you to change, ever. I love you the way you are, and I like it that you want to be independent. Next time I will not do a thing like this without your approval, it never crossed my mind that it would make you feel uncomfortable".
"So that means that when you say you are taking care of your own you also include me?", I asked. "That has to sink in Luke, I have no idea why I brought this up in the first place but it's good that we talked about this. I don't know about your family yet and Noah...that's still difficult obviously.
I am more possessive around you than I have ever been; I have to work on that. Of course I want you to live the life you want and need, that's my core business baby. For you to be the happiest you can be is what's important to me. And if that means that I have to infuse in your family then I will try. They are not so bad but they are nosy".
"They care about me enough to butter their nose into my business Reid", he said. "They want to be sure that you are right for me. They accept nothing less for me, and that's heavy but it's so fucking wonderful".
We drank our beer in peace until it got cold. I stood up and pulled Luke out of the rocking chair. "Come inside sexy", I said, "I want to butter my nose into your business as well".
NEXT CHAPTER
Chapter: 33
Written by: Parishs
Rating: pg-13
Summary: Reid is a neuro surgeon in Dallas with a burn out who tries to figure out what life is really about (Reid's POV).
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Thanks to zzzfreckles (Pamela) for the beta!!!
PREVIOUS CHAPTER
"Come on baby, we need a break", I said and put away the hammer and screws. I looked at my determined man and kissed his wet cheek.
He definitely looked sexy in an overall. We were busy all morning making fences for my horse but it was raining and I felt my wet underwear clinging against my legs. I was tired and cold but he didn't want to stop. He was so strong although he had been sitting behind a desk for years, his arm muscles flexed when he hauled the heavy beams.
When we came in I saw a basket on the counter and the smell of fresh coffee entered my nose. There was only one person who could have done this: Emma. We searched for her everywhere but she just dropped the food and made coffee before she left.
It was care that I had to get used to. It meant so much to me that Luke's family adopted me and took me into their circle. For someone who always tried to be his own man I had to acclimatize and Luke helped me with that. We almost had our first fight last night when Aaron delivered the wood.
"Where's the bill?", I asked when Aaron wanted to leave.
"It's already paid Reid", Aaron said and sat down in his car.
"By whom?", I asked.
"Luke of course", he said and nodded at his brother.
"How much is it, I am going to pay you back", I said.
Aaron looked at Luke and whistled. "That's good for a change", he said.
"Stop bitching Aaron, this is none of your business", Luke said a little agitated.
"Now don't start a fight over money guys, have a great weekend and if I have time I am coming to help you. Make love not war".
I smirked and we waved while he drove away. "I am serious Luke; I want to pay you back".
The smile on his face froze. "And why is that Reid?", he asked. "Do you want to prove that you are independent? Why don't you accept that I paid for this?
"Because it's my house and I want to pay for what I ordered, is that so strange?", I asked not understanding why this was such a big deal to him.
"Maybe we need to discuss this Reid", Luke said softly.
I shrugged and while I washed my hands I looked at the man I loved so much. Every day I discovered things about him that surprised me, little things and huge ones like this. I grabbed glasses and something to drink and with a head-shake I invited him on my porch.
"Okay Luke, tell me why this is such a big deal? I said.
He looked in the distance before he answered; it took him a while until he had gathered his thoughts. "It's just.... I don't know Reid, I never think about money, have you ever Googled me?".
"No, should I?', I asked. "Have you looked me up?
He nodded.
"When?", I asked flabbergasted.
"When Aaron texted me about you", he said softly. "I don't know why I do it, its second nature I guess, since my dad kidnapped me to Malta I am superstitious, I want to be certain that the people I love are protected. And I know they are because we have security but I want to be sure".
"You have been kidnapped?", I asked.
"Yes but that's not what this is about Reid, don't drift. I am going to tell you someday, but this is about us".
"You have security checking on you and your family?", I said stunned.
"Yes", he said. "Having money is not just a fun thing you know".
His words reeled me but I wanted to stay close to the subject we were talking about. "Okay, no I never Googled you, should I have? What would I have discovered? How much money you have? How many guys you screwed? What?".
He couldn't believe that I was sincere. "You don't like control do you?", he said.
"It was my middle name when I was living in Dallas Luke", I said softly. "But Peter teached me to let it go, it's a burden. I moved here with nothing, knowing no one, this whole adventure was an exercise in letting go because it made me sick.
I have to confess that I have had doubts about us when I met you, when I saw you working in your office I got dizzy and hyper and I didn't want that anymore so I tried to take a step back but that didn't work, I am addicted to you, stressed or not.
But to be honest I am so glad that you decided to step out of the stock market. Working should be fun especially when you are loaded Luke. And now you brought it up, how much are you worth?
"A lot of zeroes", he said and looked apologetic. "But it doesn't feel like mine Reid, most of it I inherited or was sent to me. Blood money, blackmail money, bribe money, my dad had a whole range of names for it. So don't make a big deal about paying me back for the beams please".
"There's so much about you that I don't know", I said and caressed his face, he looked so sad all of a sudden. "How much was it? Just curious, I am going to accept this gift from you, thank you".
He got really shy all of a sudden. "It's not a gift Reid; I just paid for some wood. I am living in your house for free; if we are going to put every little detail on a scale it's going to be very complicated. Are you afraid that things get messy, is that it? Do you want this to be your house and I can't pay anything? So if we break up this place is just yours? What's behind this issue?".
I leaned forward and kissed his mouth. I wanted to undress him and pull him against me but this had to be talked out or it would stay between us forever so I tried to catch my worries in words.
"I really don't know why I am making such a big deal about this Luke", I said. "I guess I am not used to sharing and I am not used to being with someone. I am independent and I have to learn to accept that you want to contribute to my house.
It is going to be our house you know, since you moved in I am happy. Happy that we are so fluid together, that everyday life is going so smoothly. Sometimes you bring in groceries and other times I do, it's okay. But this....I am not used to someone taking care of me".
Luke looked up and our eyes locked. It was good that we sometimes were forced to talk about the bigger issues but it was all in good way, the trust between us made that we could ask what we wanted to know.
"I love you Reid", he said and caressed my hand with his thump. "And about the beams, I have no idea how much it was, Aaron send the bill to Noah and he paid. If you really want to know I am going to call him".
I shook my head and closed my eyes for a second; of course, Noah took care of things until the end of the month and then he would hand the whole thing over to Nathalie, Luke's sister. She was an accountant and Luke asked her to manage his financial things.
"Why are you keeping everything in the family?", I asked a little more agitated than I wanted. "Noah, your brother and sister, everyone is involved in your life, don't you need a little privacy? Or is it the discount?".
Luke tilted my head and kissed my lips deliberately; "Noah is not a threat", he whispered "and neither is my family. I don't like to brag but you have to know that I take care of my own.
When Aaron is bringing the beams here I pay him more than they cost. I don't like charity but I want to help my family. The money just fell into my lap and I hated it for a long time, but now my family and I have accepted it and they accept that I support them one way or another. They don't hold up their hand but I support them in paying for an education or a business. We are all working for our money and my extra money is just icing on the cake.
I am just grateful that I have a family I love and that they love me back, not for my money but for me as a person Reid. It's suffocating sometimes but to be embedded in a clan like this is all what matters in life.
And I am so grateful that you are here as well. I hope that one day you feel a part of the clan as well Reid. But it's up to you to see how fast and how far you want to go, everything is okay. I know you are your own man and I don't want you to change, ever. I love you the way you are, and I like it that you want to be independent. Next time I will not do a thing like this without your approval, it never crossed my mind that it would make you feel uncomfortable".
"So that means that when you say you are taking care of your own you also include me?", I asked. "That has to sink in Luke, I have no idea why I brought this up in the first place but it's good that we talked about this. I don't know about your family yet and Noah...that's still difficult obviously.
I am more possessive around you than I have ever been; I have to work on that. Of course I want you to live the life you want and need, that's my core business baby. For you to be the happiest you can be is what's important to me. And if that means that I have to infuse in your family then I will try. They are not so bad but they are nosy".
"They care about me enough to butter their nose into my business Reid", he said. "They want to be sure that you are right for me. They accept nothing less for me, and that's heavy but it's so fucking wonderful".
We drank our beer in peace until it got cold. I stood up and pulled Luke out of the rocking chair. "Come inside sexy", I said, "I want to butter my nose into your business as well".
NEXT CHAPTER