and all i am is part of you

[nebenmond]

Who: Heine Rammsteiner (nebenmond) || Nill (mitescent) || Giovanni (pseudism) || Fuyumine Naoto (acierate) [Open if you really want to join \o/]
What: finding nill bb
Where: somewhere in the underground
When: Just after this

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[mitescent]

[ She's lost count of the seconds that went by ever since she heard Heine's voice. Maybe ten, thirty, two hundred and sixty four - who knows? Counting down is almost like a deadline, something that never fixes the anxiety in her head and it never gets rid of it, but it's fine, just fine, because Heine is coming. Heine is coming. She just has to keep reminding herself of that.

And she's trying, oh, she's trying so hard to be brave, to wave the fear away, but it's hard when just moments ago the world felt like it suddenly ended: hands over her ears, eyes closed so tight, and the big explosion - glass breaking, the chaotic noises, and people freaking out left and right.

Sometimes, it makes her wonder just how loud she would have screamed right there and then.

But she hears him - Nill? - and everything else is momentarily forgotten. She untangles herself from the small ball she forced her body to curl into (she was scared, she was scared), and rises up to her feet. Doesn't even bother waiting a second longer - three hundred and sixty-

[nebenmond]

[Footsteps. The crunching of debris kicked and scattered beneath small feet encased in shoes fills his ears. It's from behind him, and he knows it's her-expects it-but even so, his body tenses with every muscle preparing for nothing (a girl hurried to usher forward a reunion) or anything (screaming metal blasted and soared to tear cloth, skin, and muscle; scrape bones like nails raking against a chalk board-a sound as loud the searing pain accusing Heine once again for choices made poorly), but he doesn't turn.

(Shoot first, think later. Where's that survival- it says, warning him for hesitance and of consequences due to failure of foresight but no-) No, because it's Nill, he should turn, should turn to see her, to greet her empty handed and with no sign of being a threat or a threat being present. No weapons, no paranoid nature, nothing but a smile just for her to let her know it's okay now

[pseudism]

[ He's getting pretty used to Heine's weaknesses by now. Even when everything around them has become disappointing and inconsistent, shifting from one world to the other time and again, there's a few things about him that never, ever change. And it's pretty bothersome sometimes, when Giovanni gives it real thought - you're supposed to be the best, Heine, you're supposed to have no weaknesses - but it has its advantages, too, those occasional moments where he doesn't even need to smell him out because he knows where he'll go, first. Lily's gone - which came with its own set of complications, and it feels like that particular trump card had gone to waste, been a failure on his part, and thinking of it makes his teeth grind - but it also means that there's only one real priority left for him here. Only one thing he'll want to protect

[mitescent]

[He's here, he's real, she isn't imaging anything of this at all.

She wasn't normally this afraid, wasn't as jumpy, but after everything that had happened moments before - she only wanted to be sure. And that's why she hugs him first, doesn't even bother to look up at his face, because it isn't necessary at the time. When Heine finally pushes her away for a second, she blinks up and the second hug catches her off-guard.

That's all she needs: it's okay. A hushed pair of words, and suddenly, she isn't scared anymore. But you can tell the anxiety never completely leaves when it becomes all too obvious just how firm her grip is around his hand, fingers almost interlacing - just like that - but never quite getting there. It's enough, she wants to believe, this is enough, because it's Heine, and Heine is never wrong, he'll make wishes come true

[nebenmond]

[There's a limit to an endless game, one that has lost its valor long ago on both sides and while Heine cannot express surprise or lack thereof at Nill being targeted, he can do something else much more effective.

He can break. Snap (his sanity echos its loss of unity) and this is where it all goes downhill. Because losing Lily was enough (his fault, her flesh and blood soaking his hands, caking underneath fingernails) and even Nill being injured due to her connection with him could not happen (his fault, again again, he's reminded should it happen-)

don't fucking remind me

But, in reality, there is no insanity, no loss of control, only a very fine line being tread now because Heine's patience is gone so fucking far already, he'd never catch it if he wanted to. That gunshot-that loss-is what has Heine grab for one gun, although he doesn't draw, well aware of Giovanni's own and where it points. Maybe with someone else, Heine would calculate that he could draw and shoot faster, but with Nill? He's not taking any chances.]Didn't I