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[3packof_bvds]

[still confused on finding out what his loss is, Danny has been thinking way too much. Trying to figure out how people cope with something missing from their lives here, and if taking advantage of that -- somehow is disrespectful to the ones back home. So of course, while sitting on the steps of the grand staircase in the lobby of the castle Danny

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[encryptedlock]

Then you're lucky if you have someone from home who knows and who's willing to tell you.

[3packof_bvds]

[nods] Not so sure if I'd think it was luck though.

I know her, she's a good friend actually. From what I recall we had a thing, and then things got rough and that was that. Showed up here, figured we were still just good friends.

[rubs his forehead] Turns out back home we're married and have a kid on the way, though Adam said she was just born... but that's after I'm from.

[encryptedlock]

...That's pretty fucked-up.

But is it better than forgetting her altogether, do you think? At least you got half a chance to figure out where you should stand, here, long as you remember who she is. Can't be easy, either way. Sorry, man.

[3packof_bvds]

[laughs] Yeah it is.

She's not here though. Mean if she was, it might be easier to sort out. Instead I've been here thinking I'm single back home -- I'm just wondering how disrespectful I'm being to her, I won't remember it when I go back, but I'll know about it here.

[yamanaka]

--then what do you do? Is that what you're asking?

[3packof_bvds]

In a way yeah. Mean I know who she is, just I didn't know what she was to me before I was told.

So do I live as if she could show up, respecting a relationship I don't remember -- let alone feel? Or do I live as if when she does I'll have to handle that and hope I don't hurt her?

[yamanaka]

Well, I guess it depends. That's not really something that someone can choose for you, but .. I guess it depends on how she would react when she found out.

Or, you could try to get your loss changed?

[3packof_bvds]

You can get your loss changed? [is curious]

Though I figure that would be worse. To know I have a wife and kid back home and can't see them? I think it's good that I don't have that emotional connection, but I still have to wonder about being faithful to a relationship that in my mind doesn't exist.

[zone_of_truth]

[dictated]

Dealing with your loss?

[3packof_bvds]

Making an attempt to at least.

[zone_of_truth]

[a bit of a sigh]

Well, I think what matters is what you're comfortable with doing. You said it yourself, you won't remember what happened here when you leave, so it just seems to be a matter of whether or not you're comfortable with pursuing a life here, even with the life you have back home.

[3packof_bvds]

Think I'd end up pretty miserable if I didn't at least try to make a life here.