But I had to get this off my chest...and FB is not the place for it...it'll just stir up shit.

I am so very tired of terrible bad behavior always rewarded.

What about those of us who do the right thing?

I am tired of feeling 2nd rate. ALWAYS.

...but nothing there.

Everyone is in NYC through end of Jan.

Home alone...no one. And a supposed "milestone" approaching. I'd rather not make it.

How I have managed to continue to hold my head up for this long I have no idea. Words mean nothing...actions mean everything.

What little I had to be restored in faith ...really truly seems to be gone.

No need to restore that faith, as I have no where to hold it.

Hint taken world

..stopping me from going home right now and taking that bottle of pills. In fact I want to. Let's end this.

...is ground zero for Irene? I want to be in that exact spot when it comes in as a Cat 4!

Quick and Easy

a 5th one... not good enough...I hear you loud and clear world.

the cycle continues.

Real answer..."I don't want anything...with YOU"..."Thanks I got what I wanted"

I am just a fuck...until they can find what they really want.

I can take the hint world...really I can.

I need somewhere to "vent" say things I can never say on FB (too many family members and co-workers)

There will be some dark stuff...some rants. I hope I do not bore you.

Hopefully it won't be all there is.

I am just in a bad place.

I am in a really dark place...how do you just end it all?

My prayers have not been heard.