Oh Wow! Welcome back, Rusted Dawn. Strangely enough, I remembered quite a bit of the story before reading this wonderful chapter. Guess that is a mark of a great story, and this chapter fit right along with the rest of them.
The roller coaster ride of emotions that both Roy and Ed experienced was overwhelming. You really pulled us right along with them.
And Roy admitted his love for Ed to himself and Ed! Wow! Ed's reaction to that declaration was both startling in his intensity but not unexpected. I can't help but wonder what the hell happened out on that mission.
This was a fantastic chapter, and you have made my day now that you are back writing it again. And now it is my bedtime. I just had to stay up and read this chapter, knowing if I didn't, I'd just be thinking and wondering about it all night long.
It was *so hard* picking up that voice again! This story isn't like most; you can't just wander and in and out of it, and retain focus. I'm having to re-immerse myself all over again
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I've just read all fourteen chapters in a row and I can't fully describe how bloody glad I am to have found this story, and how bloody much my heart is breaking for these two right now. I haven't felt this worn down after a fic in *ages* - thank you for the wonderful read although it came with quite a bit of sadface. This is going to be one of those fics that's gonna stay in my head for ages, I know it.
Poor boys ;_; the simultaneous feelings of helplessness and comfort I keep on getting from this fic and how you've kept my on the edge of my chair and biting my nails leaves me breathless. Looking forward to more of this :)
Ah... heartbreak and sadface was always the name of the game with this story, I'm afraid. But I'm so glad you took the plunge anyway! And even moreso, that you are enjoying it despite the angst. Believe me, it isn't any more comfortable to write than it is to read, so I totally get the 'worn down' feeling!
And the boys... they are a mess, aren't they? And god help me, I love 'em that way.
Thank you so much for reading this epic monster of mine, and for leaving me such a nice comment. Now that I'm finally back to it (it's an immersion-style fic, and I'm slowly sinking under), I sincerely hope I'll be able to update it again within a reasonable time frame. Anyway, thanks again, and welcome to the crazy! ;)
Oh wow, I am so stoked to see this again - I really had written it off as one of those amazing fics that would fall away incomplete. Actually going to start at the beginning before reading this chapter. I am just so tickled to see it. =D
I feel so terrible that it has taken me this long to get the next chapter out. The scene that was flawed was, unfortunately, an absolutely essential one and at the time I got my initial beta comments back on it, I had *no* idea whatsoever how to fix it. I'm just thankful I finally found a way through it!
And no matter what, no matter how long, I absolutely will finish this. It would be entirely unfair not to. I don't hold with the notion that any writer is unconditionally obligated to their readers, but in this case, I feel as though I really am. There is too much heavy emotion tied up in this story, and to leave it unresolved would be to break an unspoken contract I have with everyone who has suffered along with the boys. And to myself as well, having conceived and executed this monster of a tale this far already.
So thank you, so very much!! And I truly hope this chapter lives up to your expectations!
I'm so happy to see this; I'd given up on this story ever being finished. This was an awesome chapter, even if Ed and Roy are breaking my heart. Also, Alphonse is fabulous.
Ah, I may take forever, but I *will* finish this story! I couldn't not, at this point. And we're so close to the end anyway.
Ed and Roy... *sigh. They're both so messed up, but so damned beautiful being a mess. But oh, Al- this is one of the few stories I've written where I felt like I have grasped Al's character. He's been a lot of fun to insert, and when he appears he regularly outfoxes both Roy and I! But he really is a joy.
Thank you so much for reading, and for hanging with me through the long hiatus. I'll try really hard not to make you wait so long for the next one!
Ed is so afraid of being hurt again, it's just tragic to watch. But he can't stop himself from caring, even if he is in denial about it. This is tearing them both down, I can see how this might've been a trial to write! But it's beautifully raw and painful.
There was a song I wanted to post along with this chapter, but my desktop has a blown power supply, and I'm running everything from my netbook at the moment, so I can't access it. It wasn't the inspiration for the last scene (which was written waaaaay early in the process, and has been patiently waiting in the wings), but it perfectly encapsulates my vision of Ed at that point. ("Rootless Tree", by Damien Rice, if you're interested) I swear, I must've cackled aloud for ten or fifteen minutes the first time I heard it, because it is exactly what is happening in my head there. Ed's 'love song', ha!
But that tangent aside, I am extremely happy that you enjoyed this chapter. Yes, it was difficult to write, but it's totally worth it when I see that it's working as I'd hoped. Even after the super-long hiatus (which I still feel bad about). Thanks so much for hanging with it!
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The roller coaster ride of emotions that both Roy and Ed experienced was overwhelming. You really pulled us right along with them.
And Roy admitted his love for Ed to himself and Ed! Wow! Ed's reaction to that declaration was both startling in his intensity but not unexpected. I can't help but wonder what the hell happened out on that mission.
This was a fantastic chapter, and you have made my day now that you are back writing it again. And now it is my bedtime. I just had to stay up and read this chapter, knowing if I didn't, I'd just be thinking and wondering about it all night long.
Hugs,
"T"
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Poor boys ;_; the simultaneous feelings of helplessness and comfort I keep on getting from this fic and how you've kept my on the edge of my chair and biting my nails leaves me breathless. Looking forward to more of this :)
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And the boys... they are a mess, aren't they? And god help me, I love 'em that way.
Thank you so much for reading this epic monster of mine, and for leaving me such a nice comment. Now that I'm finally back to it (it's an immersion-style fic, and I'm slowly sinking under), I sincerely hope I'll be able to update it again within a reasonable time frame. Anyway, thanks again, and welcome to the crazy! ;)
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And no matter what, no matter how long, I absolutely will finish this. It would be entirely unfair not to. I don't hold with the notion that any writer is unconditionally obligated to their readers, but in this case, I feel as though I really am. There is too much heavy emotion tied up in this story, and to leave it unresolved would be to break an unspoken contract I have with everyone who has suffered along with the boys. And to myself as well, having conceived and executed this monster of a tale this far already.
So thank you, so very much!! And I truly hope this chapter lives up to your expectations!
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Ed and Roy... *sigh. They're both so messed up, but so damned beautiful being a mess. But oh, Al- this is one of the few stories I've written where I felt like I have grasped Al's character. He's been a lot of fun to insert, and when he appears he regularly outfoxes both Roy and I! But he really is a joy.
Thank you so much for reading, and for hanging with me through the long hiatus. I'll try really hard not to make you wait so long for the next one!
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But that tangent aside, I am extremely happy that you enjoyed this chapter. Yes, it was difficult to write, but it's totally worth it when I see that it's working as I'd hoped. Even after the super-long hiatus (which I still feel bad about). Thanks so much for hanging with it!
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