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Aug 04, 2021 19:50

I'm not putting a subject line on this. I'm too exhausted, emotionally and physically, to do so ( Read more... )

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lupine52 August 6 2021, 01:20:58 UTC
"I've spent practically all my time with him over the past twelve years"

reading your entry brought tears to my eyes, I feel so sad for you in losing your lifelong feline family member. I can only wish you strength as you mourn your loss

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paintitblack August 7 2021, 04:38:18 UTC
I appreciate your kind words. I spent yesterday giving him as much in the way of final kindnesses as I could, including letting him roam my folks' backyard(a garden in an almost literal sense) and giving him a final taste of being outside. The vet that came over was very compassionate, though raised some questions as he was able to determine how far the cancer had spread just by looking at him.

I feel like the vet that had been looking at him had given me some false hope and kept me strung along for multiple appointments when they could have given me the bad news at once. I feel like he suffered needlessly as a result.

I will be okay, but I know it's going to be a while before the feelings of sorrow and anger fade. I was looking forward to introducing him(and my other cat, Belle) to the new house; I had some ideas that I wanted to do for them including building an outdoor, safe area for them to play and hang out as well as some indoor fixtures to keep them happy. Stuff I never really had the ability to do here at my current place.

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