hey look. its 530am.. im awake.

man. shit really hit the fan again lately. did alot of 'soul searching' as someone put it.. saw alot of things about myself that i didnt like. so now i have somthing to work on..

im alive. whoo. all the shit thats gone wrong this last couple weeks.. damn. broke finger. truck impounded. lost job. learning about my dad... whoo! sigh. oh well.. i still have my cigarettes.. and soon i can go sledding.

ive had too much time to think today. i was alone in an office all morning, with no music. staring at paperwork. i must have stared at the same damn paper for 20 minutes. it all started this morning when i heard this version of time after time on the radio. its the acoustic version, by eva cassidy. they played it on a particularly sad episode of ( Read more... )

haha not really... im pretty sure anyway. i think it was just water spilled on the stool ( Read more... )

so i grow tired of this place... if anyone cares.. JOIN MYSPACE! its yummy... n shit,... and cooler then this.. if yer not in it for the pure blogness (thats right bitches.. i made a word) of livjournal... then ya.. myspace rocks it so much harder ( Read more... )

so i quit smoking,... and this is the first night since i quit that i havent been completly smashed drunk... so i really want to smoke. alot. and it sucks ( Read more... )

hey everyone (i.e tara ( Read more... )

i .. dont know what that means ( Read more... )

so i just found out about duane. his thing was earlier today. i wish i wouldve known. i wish someone wouldve told me sooner. thank you liz, for telling me at all. i did the qpr presentations with him too. i think i even did suicide skits with him, him talking me out of it.

i wish i wouldve known sooner.

so my head is this close to exploding. or imploding. we are leaving in a couple hours. and it just hit me. ive never had friends like this. i dont want to leave them. when i was in wasilla it was easy for me to come up here because all my friends there were so passive about hanging ut with me. but here.. i dont know. im really going to miss this ( Read more... )