Fuck, I'm stuck here

[p1ague]

I have always felt like an alien in this world, like I didn't belong anywhere. Or did belong everywhere, or something. I never joined any social groups in the school setting, but I didn't ALWAYS avoid them. By that I mean that I might spend time with this circle or that, briefly.. but I never felt part, it was not my identity, and it seemed that

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Fun with tactical nuclear weapons.

[fearofthedark]

i'm telling you, we are going to have to get to existing in the same place every so often mang. Its shameful that we don't do that, I only talk as much as i did at p-fish when i am drinking. You've always got stuff that i like to hear about. there isn't a damn thing you've written in this post that i have not contemplated or lived. Ofcourse though I still feel excited about finding the right girl,which is obvious. I got s-bot the day after we talked and it was a huge help cleaning a lot of garbage out of my hard drive.

Re: Fun with tactical nuclear weapons.

[p1ague]

So I never said "yeah, it is shameful.. but I guess it's shameful I don't talk to ANYONE much more than that, too", which was my reply. I thought I did, but shit happens, I guess. How you doin'? You got that email thingy turned on where you don't have to go trying to find all your old posts to see if anybody replied to em?

[fearofthedark]

im just doing what I've been doing, looking for a girl,reading the newspaper etc etc

i can relate

[lulumcdink]

i have felt like that before. however, there were always things that stuck out with me, favorites of life. i am still a "jack of all trades", and it's not impossible to be expert at many things. going anywhere in life requires organization in your mind, organization of your priorities, your goals. what are your priorities? you have to choose something, at least for a little while, like fotd said. you have to give yourself permission to do these things, to become enraptured with life, like everyone else. you are afraid of losing your identity, afraid to become "just like everyone else". i know how that is. often the people who think like that and take the steps to make stuff happen are the ones who do great things in the world. because, when you pick something to do, you will find that you do not lose your identity, your identity feeds into the action, gives immense creativity to it, far more than any other people could've. this is because you have high standards, standards which you have stood by diligently, so much so that you are

wow man,

[ninevoltdevil]

you guys read all the shit he writes >:+P hehe