im testing this lj app on my phone. a lot has happened lately..me and danielle broke up because of what i assumed to be her major depression problems but i guess i was wrong because i found out so much afterwards, like shes dating a girl she introduced me to at a bar so who the fuck knows what went on with them, but apparently im the cheater, like ( Read more... )

Time to update.  It's spring break and i'm sick..oh well.  Not that I can enjoy it anyway cause i'm working like 45 hours this week and have a shit load of homework to do, including a 100 question take home test.   CVS and school basically take up my life.  I failed the math part of the NET so I need to re-take it in June.  I'v lost one of my best ( Read more... )

Wow I forgot this thing exsisted ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder when it is i'll know who I am, what I want, where i'll end up, who I'll end up with. Sometimes I drive myself crazy thinking about all these things. I trap myself in angst as I realize I can't force myself to grow up any faster than god or nature intends. I feel like everyone is always playing one big game of hide and seek-- ( Read more... )

Seems to me like there are immature people posting shit on my entries..wow honestly get over yourself. Anyway since i'm here I might as well update.  I really havent posted a a positive entry on here in a long time..so here's one now..cause for once I can't really complain about life.

Being single is GREAT, however, I'v learned many life lessons ( Read more... )

 So I guess it's time to update...
Today would have been my one year anniversary, with the most amazing girl i'v ever met, but I fucked that up so bad.  I created people online to test her love.  It started out with one person, then I got really insecure and could'nt get myself out of it.  I constantly needed exceptance, which is so rediculous ( Read more... )

Why does everything have to be like this.   Work sucks, i'm treated like shit and being taken advantage of.  The majority of my friends obviously dont give a shit about me anymore seeing as I havent had any contact with any of them in over a week and when I do talk to them online, it's some bullshit about how I work so much and dont have time... ( Read more... )

So the break only lasted 2 days.  We both couldnt stand being away from each other.  We talked through our problems and really listented and understood each other for once...we both know what we need to work on and change so we decided to get back together.  We hung out saturday night, she leaned in and kissed me, and for once in a long time, I ( Read more... )

Here it goes. Wednesday morning I got into a fight with Jenny, over something rediculous as usual and in the heat of the moment I said things I didnt mean and broke up with her. I packed up all the stuff she gave me and drove to her house and dropped it off and she gave me my stuff back as well. I couldnt stop crying so I parked around the block ( Read more... )

I love Jenny Julia Mathews with all of my heart
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