Goodnight, Kiddo

[ownworst_enemy]

 To begin, thank you everyone for your support. You guys have helped me make some unregretable decisions.

We took Freckles to her 1:15 appt. Everyone went except for my sister. Before we went, I went to give her her last cookie when she was lieing down. I wanted her to get up so i could make her sit and shake. But when she realised she had to get

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[tessamarie]

Well.....i'm probably from the other side of the world so you don't know me. Singapore, to be exact. Happened to stumble across your page thru the Friend's List on splodefromcute

[ownworst_enemy]

hey, thanks so much for the comment (i added pictures now so you can see her =) ) I know a lot of people go through it, and i'm sure you know the feeling of feeling like your the only one. It makes me feel better though hearing stories like yours, just seeing that your, well, still alive and well lol. It just helps me know that eventually it gets better. and i'm glad that you told me you didnt' want to leave her side once she was gone...like i said, its nice knowing someone knows how i felt and how hard it was to leave.
I checked out that website before all of this, and I really wanna look at it now. So thanks for the help. And i'm so sorry about your dog. It sounds very tragic.

[tessamarie]

Haha, it's alright! :) It takes awhile before you feel alright again though. Anyway my dog was pretty silly. He was foaming cos it ate bees that were on the floor. The day before that we had the exterminator to destroy this bee hive & well.... I guess my dog found some left over bees. Haha! Silly dog! I still miss him sometimes. Oh well :)

Take care!

[sxdx]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost one of my dogs, Lincoln in January and it was really hard.

[ownworst_enemy]

thanks...its been so much harder then i would have ever expected.

[sxdx]

I can complete relate to that feeling. It is beyond crushing no matter how "ready" you thought you were. The pain dulls but it still hurts. I wish I could tell you it doesn't. You have lots of memories, though.

[ownworst_enemy]

yeah...it really feels like a piece of me has died inside. i know eventually, i won't be moping around everyday. but im scared of how long that will take. but i see people like you that are, well, still alive...so i know it gets better-but never perfect.

[petulant]

Here's the post I was talking about in dog_lovers.

But I am so, so sorry for you. It's so excruciatingly hard to lose a dog, especially when they've been your best friend for so long. I also didn't want to leave the room after my last dog had passed; I didn't want to see him all alone because, after all, he had never left me alone when I needed him.

She was an adorable pup and I know it's hard right now, but you just have to try and remember the great times you spent together. Just try to focus on the fact that she had an wonderful, long life and that you contributed to that. That you even contributed when it counted the most and she was suffering and you had to make the most un-selfish decision you possibly can. That's the hardest thing for me to remember.

My heart goes with you. If there's anything I can do to help, please let me know.

[ownworst_enemy]

thank you, i'll be reading the post after this. its nice having her buried at the top of our hill in our backyard (i got to pick out a beautiful tree to put on top of it.) i've gone up there the past couple nights (well its only been 2 nights) and just talked to her. it actually really does help. i'm feeling so many feelings right now that i've never felt before. its horrible...but i try to keep thinking that it was going to happen no matter what, and at least it happened before she got worse.
thanks a lot for talking with me about it.

[ownworst_enemy]

oh man, i hear yah.
but i have to admit...i smiled at the last line. i hope they see eachother =)