In are class yesterday after clean up bell rang me and marty cornered Joe, Carls little brother. We started punching him and he punched back a little bit. So i threatened to punch him in the face. He flinched hell of. I punched him in the eye and he was like wtf. Right then the teacher looked over. Joe punched a little above between my eye ( Read more... )

The past week it has felt like i have been asleep. Each moments felt like an illusion. Jeremy broke up with Anna marie... for some odd reason. But right before he did he asked me for help. I said: Drink? hit something. take out some god damn energy. fuck something up. destroy something beautiful. fuck someone besides anna marie. destroy ( Read more... )

I passed my test. After a few problems with getting my permit through faxing. Lucky me. Well... now for a car.

I'm glad i practiced yesterday or else i would be flippin out. I think i need to concentrate more on driving than the fact that im being tested. Oh well whatever. Just better keep away from alcohol right now. I better go and get ready. At least i get out of school. Im thinking too much. Bye

I bought two new CDs. Nofx- punk in drublic. and DropKick Murphy's the singles collection. I am glad i am sending money to the record companys... not really, its just easier than finding all the songs online to download illegally. Oh well watcha gonna do.

Yesterday's Party wasnt half bad. Except for maybe the part where i didnt know some people that were over and neither did brooke. But other than that everything was fine. At the beginning all the shy people showed up so that was hard to do, especially when brooke wasnt there. When she showed up things got better. Johann finally gave back Vice ( Read more... )

Well all is good in the brooke dept. She thought i called her a slut earlier today but its just her getting words confused again. Other than that all is good. Everyday, more and more, i am learning that Joe likes it when i sucker punch him. He breathes deep afterwards and goes "ahhh that felt good". I let him punch me in the chest 5 times as ( Read more... )

Well things are better with brooke. What i thought i didnt have i had all along. And what i thought was hurting me was hurting her just as well. Oh well. The past is gone. Not that i shouldnt learn from the past, just shouldnt worry about it too much. And here i am with nothing wrong. No homework to do. I ordered Fight Club original ( Read more... )

No. That cant be right. All that i have said is wrong. Go back one year and two and a half months. I am on my bed with Brooke and i get my first kiss. 6 months later... if i complain that others had a better childhood because they got farther when they were younger... I bet it was a while between each thing. As for me? I just shot up from ( Read more... )

It is 11 40 or wtvr and im going fucking crazy. I have bitten my arms so they are all chewed up. I have cut marks on my arm. No blood tho. The less blood the more suffering. Im about to lose my fucking mind. I just want to kill. I have tried to hide it for so long but something just snapped. No fucking clue what it was but i dont care ( Read more... )