[4.08] I’d break apart too, if I knowed what you knowed

[ourslutty_yoda]

She watched the water run into the drain. It was red at first, then pink, then a sort of soapy orange before it started to run clear. It was strange, not healing properly. The scar on her back was perpetually tender, the same place as Sam's and just starting to crackle around the edges. The center was still soft and red, like it'd never healed at

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[notantichrist]

Sam was irritated at being interrupted. Mostly because he was irritated at everything these days. Surprisingly, he was less irritated at Ruby than most people simply because he couldn't afford to be irritated at Ruby so when she walked in he'd ignored her at first, thinking she'd go away but knowing she wouldn't. He listened to her, panic fluttering inside of him, screaming to be let out and he shoved it down, clamped the knowledge that if he lost it now he'd never it back down over the panic and swallowed hard

[ourslutty_yoda]

"Oh baby, if I ever thought you'd follow through on that threat I wouldn't have fixed the Colt for you," she retorted sweetly. She was pleased her boy still had some fight left in him. "Regardless, I'm happy you agree with my plan."

Because what else could a death threat be but a 'yes dear'?

She squeezed his shoulder, fingers pressing hard enough to bruise. He could take it, he was a big boy after all. Thought he could take on Dean's demons all by himself. He knew better now, knew he needed all the help he could get - Dean, Ruby, Bobby, demons.

"Tick tock, Sammy," she added in the singsong voice she knew he half hated. "Pencils down, the test is over. What's your answer, Sammy? Pony up or let Dean die?"

[notantichrist]

Sam was glad for her fingers digging into his shoulder. It was something to focus on outside of the idea of failing. Part of him wanted to beg to her to squeeze harder. Instead he just watched her with that angry glare. He couldn't deny that he wouldn't follow through on his threat. He'd never intended to. It was just a threat, almost like calling Dean a jerk. He insulted Dean and threatened Ruby.

"Am I going to get something besides fucking vague answers? Now that we're being 'honest' about everything?"

[ourslutty_yoda]

"Maybe," she answered with a shrug. Hey, she was being honest. But the look on Sam's face killed her and she melted. "Yeah. The truth, it's this new thing I'm trying. Not lying to Sam."

"But I don't have all the answers," she warned. (Not that he ever listened to her warnings anyway.) "I know enough to help, but no one could ever be prepared for this, not 100%. Okay? I'm putting that on the table, up front. I'm not walking away from this, but I don't know everything. We're still working half blind."