I was talking with my friend Ashley who just a few weeks before from my sisters death lost her father to a long battle of cancer. We talking about our friends and how sometimes we just want to hibernate in this black room and pretend the world doesn't exist. How sometimes it feels wrong to smile, It feels terrible to laugh, it's a guilt within ( Read more... )

They say God doesn’t give you things, you can’t handle, wellI can’t handle anything more I’m not even sure I can handle what is on my plate right now. The tears have been flowing down my face even more now that I came back from the doctors a few days ago. I have to start taking medication for the rest of my life. Its nothing to terrible … well ( Read more... )

This journal entry will not have structure ... nor proper grammar its a ranting nonsensical vent.Life man it's at the worst it's ever been. I feel like I am screaming an no one can hear me because they are miles and miles away from me. i am screaming to get out for help for everything you can think of. I just literally want to scream at the very ( Read more... )

I've been having bad and weird dreams... I wish things would settle down in my life. I wish that my sister was better. Today I broke down. I was crying. and crying. and crying. I had only allowed myself to cry in bits in pieces.. but today was another story... I don't know my life feels as if it is a dream i can't divide my feelings or have any ( Read more... )

Well first and foremost, I went to England again and got to go to Ireland. My trip was so hectic. It wasn't about parting at all even though I wish it was. Things didn't turn out the way I wanted them to but it's okay, I can't complain. It was system overload I saw to much, met to much, learned to much. I was talking to a guy named Chris and he ( Read more... )

I have never looked at someone and try to out do them. I have never felt jealousy of hate, I feel that maybe if they succeed I too can. The feeling that I praise upon is inspiration ( Read more... )

Lately, for the past month, month and a half I have been having these dreams of situations or in actuallity mortified to reveal if they aren't about pieces of my life they deal with the characters in the Twilight series. Bella Swan, Edward Cullen and Jacob Black, these people are all played by the same people in my dreams of course I am Bella, and ( Read more... )

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