in nothing but their own skin, part 1luxoverFebruary 15 2011, 01:30:09 UTC
“Don’t worry,” Neal says, “I’ll be gentle.” And the words are nice enough, Neal knows, but he says it like, What are you, a delicate fucking flower? and knows that Dave gets that, that he hears the tone and not the words.
“Fuck you,” Dave says, and he kicks out lazily at Neal. They’re both lying on the bed in Dave’s shitty apartment because it’s quieter than Neal’s shitty apartment, with Andy and Sixx and everything, and Neal can tell that Dave’s nervous, real nervous.
“We don’t have to, you know,” Neal says, and he means it, although he doesn’t expect Dave to think he does; Neal’s an asshole sometimes.
“I want to, though,” Dave says, and he doesn’t look at Neal. Neal takes advantage of that, uses the time to look at Dave and at how he hasn’t shaved for a few days and at how the light from the lamp looks on his cheekbones. Dave’s gorgeous, real fucking sexy, although Neal doesn’t know how to say that and so he doesn’t even try.
“Good,” Neal says, although he means, Me too. He leans forward and kisses Dave, props himself up on his
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in nothing but their own skin, part DONEluxoverFebruary 15 2011, 01:34:55 UTC
“Jesus,” Neal says. “You feel so fucking-”
He doesn’t finish the thought. There’s a little bit of sweat matting Dave’s hair to his forehead, and Neal brings a hand up to brush it back before he can think better of it.
“Fuck, Dave,” he says, and he leans down to pepper kisses along Dave’s neck, biting down lightly and not-so-lightly when the urge strikes. He likes seeing Dave, afterwards, when he’s got Neal’s marks on his skin.
“Neal,” Dave says. “Neal,” and he sounds like he can’t believe what he’s feeling, like maybe it’s all almost too much. Neal likes it-love it-that he’s the one to make Dave sound like that, feel like that
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Re: in nothing but their own skin, part DONEtankshallkillFebruary 15 2011, 01:54:04 UTC
OH MY GOD. NO, REALLY, OH MY GOD.
holy crap.
holy crap. with the nails and the them and the the everything and I just. ugh. omg you are so awesome, my day was so shitty and I was feeling all down again and then you did this and I love you and omg omgomg.
this is Dave and Neal has been working so hard, so fucking hard not to screw this up. a;skdjaklsdfjasdf
I love how cocky yet insecure your Neal is. He is just..so great.
the black of his fingernails contrasting harshly with the white of David’s skin my cock is weeping rn. In a good way.
Neal thinks that maybe this is what everyone was talking about.
Re: in nothing but their own skin, part DONEotherbellaFebruary 15 2011, 02:46:34 UTC
THERE IS NO FUCKING WAY I AM RESPONDING TO THIS ANONYMOUSLY.
You filled my prompt and you did it with the pairing I was hoping someone would-but never ever dreamed it would be YOU - and I am falling apart right now.
I somehow thought Life On The Moon would be a good soundtrack to this and I am actually CRYING RIGHT NOW, HOW ARE YOU EVEN REAL?
Neal thinks that he’s got to be calm, for Dave, and that he’s got to make it good for Dave, because if he fucks it up and Dave leaves, he doesn’t know what he would do. Dave is his partner in crime, and Dave is his drinking buddy and his band mate, his boyfriend and his best friend, and suddenly it’s like Dave’s his everything, only Neal fucking blinked and missed seeing it happen.THIS IS LITERALLY MY FAVORITE THING I HAVE EVER READ ABOUT NEAL AND DAVE. You are a genius and a sorceress and I CANNOT EVEN FORM REAL WORDS, MUCH LESS COHERENT THOUGHTS REGARDING MY FEELINGS RIGHT NOW
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Re: in nothing but their own skin, part DONEsir_yessirFebruary 15 2011, 04:59:55 UTC
So fucking good, holy crap. This was not at all what I was expecting when I read the prompt, but HOLY CRAP. I love Neal's vulnerability, and the way you tell us what he's feeling even if he doesn't know how to express it himself.
Re: in nothing but their own skin, part DONEmissimae2uFebruary 15 2011, 05:35:44 UTC
LUX LUX LUX!!!!!!!!
HAVE I TOLD YOU LATELY THAT I LUV U?....CUZ IF NOT I SHOULD......
I AM SERIOUSLY HAPPY TO SEE YOU WRITING SOMETHING FOR THIS......I WAS GETTING TEMPTED TO TELL YOU WHAT WE TALKED ABOUT LAST TIME AND WAS TOTALLY GONNA COME COMMENT ON ONE OF UR SOCCER FICS JUST TO SAY HI...... ANYWAY.....THIS WAS WONDERFULLY HOT.....AND I LUV'D THE WAY THEY BOTH ARE IN THIS AND THE DYNAMIC BETWEEN THEM AND OH GOSH I JUST LUV'D IT ALL....AND YOU OF COURSE....♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Re: in nothing but their own skin, part DONEluxoverOctober 14 2011, 00:46:57 UTC
GAAHHHHH WHY ARE YOU SO WONDERFUL TO ME
like seriously, thank you so much. i still love cookmann-- is it possible to stop? i think not-- but i just kind of... ran out of things to say about them. like, if that makes sense. haha although tbh i sort of started a third installment of my cookmann verse where they're ~boyfrans, about how neal wanted to quit the anthemic, but then bigger shit happened (HE LEFT THE HOUSE. HE LEFT. THE HOUSE.) and that kinda got away from me. but, you know. might get back to the cookmann eventually, you never know.
anyways. just thanks for commenting. it really means a whole lot.
Re: in nothing but their own skin, part DONEotherbellaOctober 14 2011, 00:53:59 UTC
You are so welcome. I just - you really have a gift, you know? I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT.
my heart aches when I think about them right now, when I watch tour videos and Neal isn't there. AND LIKE. SITTING THERE, GOING TO TWO SHOWS WITHOUT NEAL.
HOW IS THIS REAL LIFE?
IT CANNOT BE.
When he left, literally, my first thought was hoshit, Lux wrote the future.
I AM HOLDING OUT HOPE HE COMES BACK. To be Dave's poolboy.
Until then, I have your perfect world to exist in.
And all of your luscious footie fic, I need to read more of it. I'm not as into it as I was a few years ago and I need to revisit it, BECAUSE IF ANYONE CAN MAKE ME SHIP THINGS, IT IS YOU.
Although, you could write, like, tree+pencil and I would be HEYYY, BEST FIC EVER.
Re: in nothing but their own skin, part DONEluxoverOctober 14 2011, 01:02:04 UTC
things of which there are many:
- IT'S OKAY-ISH EVEN IF HE DOESN'T COME BACK BECAUSE THEY'RE STILL HAVING LOADS OF SEX IN BETWEEN TOURS. OKAY? OKAY??? THEY ARE HAVING TONS OF SEX.
- if ever a picture of neal doing anything that even remotely resembles cleaning a pool/hanging poolside with cook/standing near a pool while wearing a denim jacket, i will scream. and cry. and probably scream some more.
- omg the footie world is A D D I C T I V E. i'm like all over the place in terms of ships, but i swear all of my ships are all really good. even the ones that start cracky and turn out they're actually true love (steve nash/landon donovan, ahem ahem). not that i'm like, biased or anything though.
- i really don't mean to break your heart in the most tragic of tragic manners, but tree/pencil fic isn't happening in the foreseeable future. sorry.
- i'm ok, just drowning under grad school work. how are youuuu??? i miss chatting with you, too!!!!
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“Fuck you,” Dave says, and he kicks out lazily at Neal. They’re both lying on the bed in Dave’s shitty apartment because it’s quieter than Neal’s shitty apartment, with Andy and Sixx and everything, and Neal can tell that Dave’s nervous, real nervous.
“We don’t have to, you know,” Neal says, and he means it, although he doesn’t expect Dave to think he does; Neal’s an asshole sometimes.
“I want to, though,” Dave says, and he doesn’t look at Neal. Neal takes advantage of that, uses the time to look at Dave and at how he hasn’t shaved for a few days and at how the light from the lamp looks on his cheekbones. Dave’s gorgeous, real fucking sexy, although Neal doesn’t know how to say that and so he doesn’t even try.
“Good,” Neal says, although he means, Me too. He leans forward and kisses Dave, props himself up on his ( ... )
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He doesn’t finish the thought. There’s a little bit of sweat matting Dave’s hair to his forehead, and Neal brings a hand up to brush it back before he can think better of it.
“Fuck, Dave,” he says, and he leans down to pepper kisses along Dave’s neck, biting down lightly and not-so-lightly when the urge strikes. He likes seeing Dave, afterwards, when he’s got Neal’s marks on his skin.
“Neal,” Dave says. “Neal,” and he sounds like he can’t believe what he’s feeling, like maybe it’s all almost too much. Neal likes it-love it-that he’s the one to make Dave sound like that, feel like that ( ... )
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holy crap.
holy crap. with the nails and the them and the the everything and I just. ugh. omg you are so awesome, my day was so shitty and I was feeling all down again and then you did this and I love you and omg omgomg.
this is Dave and Neal has been working so hard, so fucking hard not to screw this up. a;skdjaklsdfjasdf
I love how cocky yet insecure your Neal is. He is just..so great.
the black of his fingernails contrasting harshly with the white of David’s skin
my cock is weeping rn. In a good way.
Neal thinks that maybe this is what everyone was talking about.
that's because it is Neal. It is. It is.
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FOREVER RUINED.
truly brilliant and stunning and beautiful and everything - EVERYTHING - that i could ever want from cookmann.
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You filled my prompt and you did it with the pairing I was hoping someone would-but never ever dreamed it would be YOU - and I am falling apart right now.
I somehow thought Life On The Moon would be a good soundtrack to this and I am actually CRYING RIGHT NOW, HOW ARE YOU EVEN REAL?
Neal thinks that he’s got to be calm, for Dave, and that he’s got to make it good for Dave, because if he fucks it up and Dave leaves, he doesn’t know what he would do. Dave is his partner in crime, and Dave is his drinking buddy and his band mate, his boyfriend and his best friend, and suddenly it’s like Dave’s his everything, only Neal fucking blinked and missed seeing it happen.THIS IS LITERALLY MY FAVORITE THING I HAVE EVER READ ABOUT NEAL AND DAVE. You are a genius and a sorceress and I CANNOT EVEN FORM REAL WORDS, MUCH LESS COHERENT THOUGHTS REGARDING MY FEELINGS RIGHT NOW ( ... )
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*samantha*
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i love this.
gah, so amazing and unf!
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AND ALSO IT WAS REALLY FUCKING HOT. Guhhhhh.
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HAVE I TOLD YOU LATELY THAT I LUV U?....CUZ IF NOT I SHOULD......
I AM SERIOUSLY HAPPY TO SEE YOU WRITING SOMETHING FOR THIS......I WAS GETTING TEMPTED TO TELL YOU WHAT WE TALKED ABOUT LAST TIME AND WAS TOTALLY GONNA COME COMMENT ON ONE OF UR SOCCER FICS JUST TO SAY HI......
ANYWAY.....THIS WAS WONDERFULLY HOT.....AND I LUV'D THE WAY THEY BOTH ARE IN THIS AND THE DYNAMIC BETWEEN THEM AND OH GOSH I JUST LUV'D IT ALL....AND YOU OF COURSE....♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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It's a perfect Cookmann dynamic, I totally love how insecure Neal is. It's just SO REAL I want to live in this forever.
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how do you do this, honestly?
your writing feels so real, so vital right there in the moment.
every time I reread something of yours, I just sit here all dumbfounded that you can construct these sentences with such ease.
all of your writing is gorgeous, but your Cookmann is a masterpiece, every bit of it.
thank you for writing it. I know you're into other things now, but I'm just really grateful I can come back and revisit these when I need to.
♥.
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like seriously, thank you so much. i still love cookmann-- is it possible to stop? i think not-- but i just kind of... ran out of things to say about them. like, if that makes sense. haha although tbh i sort of started a third installment of my cookmann verse where they're ~boyfrans, about how neal wanted to quit the anthemic, but then bigger shit happened (HE LEFT THE HOUSE. HE LEFT. THE HOUSE.) and that kinda got away from me. but, you know. might get back to the cookmann eventually, you never know.
anyways. just thanks for commenting. it really means a whole lot.
<3
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my heart aches when I think about them right now, when I watch tour videos and Neal isn't there. AND LIKE. SITTING THERE, GOING TO TWO SHOWS WITHOUT NEAL.
HOW IS THIS REAL LIFE?
IT CANNOT BE.
When he left, literally, my first thought was hoshit, Lux wrote the future.
I AM HOLDING OUT HOPE HE COMES BACK. To be Dave's poolboy.
Until then, I have your perfect world to exist in.
And all of your luscious footie fic, I need to read more of it. I'm not as into it as I was a few years ago and I need to revisit it, BECAUSE IF ANYONE CAN MAKE ME SHIP THINGS, IT IS YOU.
Although, you could write, like, tree+pencil and I would be HEYYY, BEST FIC EVER.
//fangirling you+embarrassing us both now.
hope you're well. I miss chatting with you.
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- IT'S OKAY-ISH EVEN IF HE DOESN'T COME BACK BECAUSE THEY'RE STILL HAVING LOADS OF SEX IN BETWEEN TOURS. OKAY? OKAY??? THEY ARE HAVING TONS OF SEX.
- if ever a picture of neal doing anything that even remotely resembles cleaning a pool/hanging poolside with cook/standing near a pool while wearing a denim jacket, i will scream. and cry. and probably scream some more.
- omg the footie world is A D D I C T I V E. i'm like all over the place in terms of ships, but i swear all of my ships are all really good. even the ones that start cracky and turn out they're actually true love (steve nash/landon donovan, ahem ahem). not that i'm like, biased or anything though.
- i really don't mean to break your heart in the most tragic of tragic manners, but tree/pencil fic isn't happening in the foreseeable future. sorry.
- i'm ok, just drowning under grad school work. how are youuuu??? i miss chatting with you, too!!!!
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